Kacey, I'd definitely ask him- it would get bigger and bigger in my head if I didn't. Especially because this seems to be an area of ongoing hurt for you. Maybe just be curious about it- it could still be a misunderstanding. I'm sorry he didn't respond better to the donations you made- that's disappointing. I still sometimes think of how you were going to agree to have your sessions recorded as a 'gift' to your T for his DBT certification, and how it must have felt to make such a big decision and then have that great generosity turned down.

----------------------------------------------------------

My T told me a sweet story about the gingerbread biscuits I gave her, and how her little girl was asking for 'a gingy biscuit' as soon as she woke up every morning And that they decorated some and hung them on their Christmas tree. So it was nice to think about that extra connection to T throughout the holidays- that I was 'present' in her daily life in some way. Like katlover, though, it all feels very very far away now...

[Kacey2]

Oh Improving, thank you so much for mentioning you remembered that. So sweet. Sometimes I feel invisible, I would have never dreamt in a million years anybody would remember that.

Yes, that is a great idea. T has taught me by example (hard to remember it at sometimes, most times) to use a statement such as I am confused...... Instead of my usual What the F---?!

Maybe I will try to stay on the curious unassuming side instead of the you lied to me side. That might get me further. Who knows if he will be honest. He never really admits when I question him on something. It makes me feel more neurotic than I am so sometimes it is like this will be worse off than letting the lie go.

Thanks again for remembering my post.

Kacey, you're welcome. And you're definitely not invisible

(Just realised that if my T said something like this to me, I'd think "ohmygod, she means she can't help but notice me because I'm so annoying absolutely all the time and I must go away and never say anything again [insert endless spiral here]".... so just in case you're a tiny bit like me and have that response(!), I want to clarify that I simply mean that your voice and experiences are heard and remembered here)

[Dani]

I didn't give my T the gift I had gotten her because I was too scared that she would reject it. I might give it to her next Christmas though, since it will be the last Christmas that I'll be seeing her before I move away.