[SpiritRunner]

So, I have just had a hard, weird day....
It seems that I am really having reactions to my new meds that I shouldn't be having, according to my T.....not with this particular med and not after 2 days only. But I have had an awful headache, eyes feeling they're bugging out and sensitive to light, I'm dizzy, skittish, jittery, anxious, I can't seem to walk straight or focus very well.....Actually, since I was on a med briefly several months ago and it seemed to bring out random anger flashes/aggression, my T is thinking that these reactions to antidepressants points to bipolar.....which she feels I meet the criteria for anyway...
So session today was weird....she had to turn out the lights because it hurt my eyes, she was really worried about me because I looked dazed. When I got up to put on my coat, I simply felt like I was falling instead and had to sit back down. As I left, I looked back at her (I never do that) and she looked scared! This made me want to cry.....
I'm sorry this is such a depressing post......but I feel very low and sick and broken right now.....and scared, too.....so please, if anyone has any extra hugs i sure need them badly!

[Sannah]

Are you sensitive to any kinds of meds? Did she tell you to call the doc? I have reacted to meds and stuff before and it can get scary but whenever this happens I tell myself that I'm not going to die and I can handle everything else that might happen and this helps me.

((((((((((pg))))))))))

that sounds rather scary. have you called your doctor and let them know about the side effects? i think they'd want to know asap as this may not be a good med for you.

((((((((((((poetgirl)))))))))))

I'm sorry you're feeling so awful. I hope you can call your doc soon and feel better.

[skeksi]

Yuck, that does sound scary. Can you leave a message with your doc so you can get a professional opinion on whether these are concerning side effects and if you should discontinue the med?

I hope you feel better soon.

[mixedup_emotions]

Please call the dr if you haven't already....It's important to let your dr know of any reactions that you may be having to the meds, so any adjustments can be made if necessary.

(((((( BIG BIG HUGS )))))

[Liam Grey]

Hi Poetgirl... I'm really sorry for your tough moment.

Please, call your doctor as soon as you can and take care of yourself!

[SpiritRunner]

thank you all....
my T actually called my dr while I was there and talked to him about these things....and they agreed I should not take the meds for the next 2 days, then try it for 2 days again and see if the same thing happens....that takes me to Monday when I see T again. and if it's like this again, then she will make me another dr app't during our session....She said, I don't want you to suffer through this....
Sannah, my dad had an extreme reaction to a heart med that was the catalyst for his severe manic episode, an extreme reaction to the meds that they gave him in the hospital then to bring him down....Parkinson's-like syndrome, he walked backward, drooled, fell flat on his face, nasty stuff like that.....the theory they have now is that is very sensitive to meds, esp. newer class drugs, so they used older class meds after that.....but the drs also said the cognitive damage caused to his brain during all those severe overreactions to meds is permanent....perhaps I am my father's daughter in more ways than one.

[skeksi]

Phew, I am glad to hear they are in contact with you. The little 'experiment' sounds like a good way to keep you safe and check whether the reaction is the med. Hang in there, and be sure to call them if it gets worse!

I am sorry to hear your dad was made so ill by his meds.

[rainbow8]

I am very sorry you're having a reaction to the medicine. It's good that your T and dr. are on top of this and told you to stop taking it for 2 days. Don't give up! There are a lot of other meds out there. At least you're trying. Did you tell the dr. about your dad's reaction? I wonder if that could be hereditary, but I would imagine it's not. Hang in there, poetgirl!

I hope you feel better tomorrow!!

((((((((((((((((Poetgirl76)))))))))))))))))) sending lots of safe hugs.. i have a seizure disorder and have times felt like a human guinea pig while the drs tried to figure out the right combo for my aeds and ad.... glad your t and pcp are on the same page. it really means they do have your best interest at heart...

[granite1]

let us know how it goes without the meds

[lastyearisblank]

hey poetgirl,
so sorry this happened and hope you start feeling better soon! i got headaches and light sensitivity starting meds too.

[SpiritRunner]

thanks again for the replies and the care......
I am still feeling distinctly odd this morning, my eyes are not wanting to focus very well and it's even a challenge to type this! I really hope this drunk, off-kilter feeling goes away.....it stinks feeling like my mind wants to go 100 mph even when I just want to go to sleep.....and having a body humming with energy when it's still difficult to just coordinate simple movements!
And then, this is going to sound so odd......but i really wish i had not looked back yesterday when i was leaving my T's office. The image of her eyes looking so wide and intensely concerned keeps haunting me...........

[rainbow8]

I hope you feel better soon, poetgirl! Do you think you should call the dr. to say you still feel the same, or did he say it will take a couple of days? Maybe you shouldn't go back on that med at all? Your T was just concerned about you--why does that haunt you? Because of how much she cares? Because she was worried and she's supposed to be strong? Or she got YOU worried? Or all of those reasons?

[SpiritRunner]

Originally Posted by rainbow8

I hope you feel better soon, poetgirl! Do you think you should call the dr. to say you still feel the same, or did he say it will take a couple of days? Maybe you shouldn't go back on that med at all? Your T was just concerned about you--why does that haunt you? Because of how much she cares? Because she was worried and she's supposed to be strong? Or she got YOU worried? Or all of those reasons?

rainbow, I think it was the intensity I saw in her eyes.....and because I think there was a very real deep fear behind it for me. I think I am just getting tired of people looking at me recently with that sort of worried, deeply concerned gaze.....and the thought of people having pity on me (or a reason to have pity on me) also has always bothered me. I feel badly that she had reason to be afraid for me..........but it also helps me to know that she really does deeply care for me and my well-being.
I'm beginning to feel some better.......but I just need to crash, esp. since the little ones are all napping.....