T followed me,,,,

With or without you - Thanks for your comments. I think this has all been so hard for me to deal with right now more because of running into my rapist and less than about T following me. I think that both of those things were not something that I was anticipating experiencing that night and would have been fine if they never happened. I think by focusing on the earlier part of the evening with T although it was a little bizarre for a bit, everything prior to that was ok which is something that is a lot better to focus on rather than the latter with whom I ran into at the coffee shop. It was for that reason after I posted about that, that I was looking for more support, Thanks for being able to provide me with some. Means a lot.

Googley I also want to thank you for all of your kind words, and yes it has been a struggle and definitely triggering, Thanks

I am not sure I understand and am unsure what you are saying. What is it that you are finding a rewarding experience?

I think I am just having a really crappy time with seeing my rapist and not getting enough sleep because I am on edge. Sorry If I am coming across as *****y at all. I am having a hard time coping with flashbacks and the likes...

well not having to worry about my T following me..and being treated as an adult..I!m sorry you were only looking for support for having seen your absuer, but your original post was entilted my T followed me.. .

Melbadaze- I wasn't only looking for support for seeing my rapist. I was also trying to make sense of what had happened earlier in the night,

So your rewarding experience is not having to worry about your T follow you and you are treated as an adult? I thought you were referring to the type of therapy that you get.

My T does treat me like an adult, I think that she did what she did was out of concern,

yes the therapy is rewarding also...i feel confused now...if it was out of concern then why was you upset by it? i,m feeling theres some lack of emotional honesty here..perhaps thats my stuff..but I react to emotional dishonesty and need to understan why I am feeling that from this thread.

you're welcome

When I was in residential. We would often go out to eat so that the people with ED's would have to face their anxiety. It was based in CBT. Afterwards if they wanted to go to the restroom a Residential Councillor of the same sex would go into the washroom with them. This also happened at the hospital. It was the way they prevented purging. It was a very respected hospital. So I don't find it weird at all.
Thats just my take though. I realize it is different than everyone elses.

Thanks, I think that is what my psychiatrist was doing with me, It is almost the exact same scenario. Thanks for sharing this!! It makes me feel a lot better about what happened and understand a lot more why she would have done that. I think I was also surprised because that is the first time that she has ever done anything like that so it was quite unexpected. -And yes I know I said that I felt like I was going to puke but I also said she is used to this because it is my automatic reaction/phrase for when I am triggered.

Thanks again!!

I said that I was bothered by it because it felt like she didn't trust me. Also she had never done that before so I was surprised for lack of a better word. I am being emotionally honest.

Katlover -Your post has made me feel so much better about the situation. I can't thank you enough!!

Melbadaze -Why do you think there is emotional dishonesty here?