[SpiritRunner]

So, session today.....and T is going on vacation, so it will be 10 days before my next session! I'm feeling a little nervous about not having her in reach right now, though she has set up a really good backup plan of support for me and I can see her supervisor T if I need to.
But I'm feeling like it's bad timing (not for her, because I'm sure she could use a vacay, but for me!) because we are in the middle of figuring out this whole med stuff......I went off the med I had a bad reaction to and then tried it again for a couple days as instructed and it sent me way high and off-kilter both physically and emotionally, so I have yet another dr. appt to try another med....or more than one.
And she is quite sure, given my reaction to this antidepressant (as well as the fact the other times I briefly took another med, I got really angry after being on it....) that it points to me being bipolar (also taking emotional history into account, too, not only med reaction).
I don't know, this is a lot of stuff to deal with while she's gone and I'm nervous about it a bit......I'm sure I'll be OK, but I find myself hoping that, while she has a wonderful time, it goes fast!!

[mixedup_emotions]

Originally Posted by poetgirl76

So, session today.....and T is going on vacation, so it will be 10 days before my next session! I'm feeling a little nervous about not having her in reach right now, though she has set up a really good backup plan of support for me and I can see her supervisor T if I need to.
But I'm feeling like it's bad timing (not for her, because I'm sure she could use a vacay, but for me!) because we are in the middle of figuring out this whole med stuff......I went off the med I had a bad reaction to and then tried it again for a couple days as instructed and it sent me way high and off-kilter both physically and emotionally, so I have yet another dr. appt to try another med....or more than one.
And she is quite sure, given my reaction to this antidepressant (as well as the fact the other times I briefly took another med, I got really angry after being on it....) that it points to me being bipolar (also taking emotional history into account, too, not only med reaction).
I don't know, this is a lot of stuff to deal with while she's gone and I'm nervous about it a bit......I'm sure I'll be OK, but I find myself hoping that, while she has a wonderful time, it goes fast!!

It certainly is bad timing for you...I said to T that it was bad timing for our rupture to occur, because now is when I need him a lot...and don't feel the trust that I need in order to get my needs met. Too bad some things are out of our control.

I'm glad you're seeing the dr to try another med. Getting the meds right can be a grueling task. Hang in there, hopefully it will be beneficial in the long run.

I hope your T's vacation goes quickly for you. Not for her, but for you!

[rainbow8]

I'm sorry your T is going on vacation when you need her. I don't know much about meds. How do you know having a reaction means you're bipolar rather than just having side effects from the medicine? I see you explained her reasons but it still doesn't seem so clear. I hope you get it figured out. If you are bipolar and get on the right med, you'll feel a whole lot better, I bet! Hang in there. It's okay to post a lot while T is away.

[SpiritRunner]

Originally Posted by rainbow8

I'm sorry your T is going on vacation when you need her. I don't know much about meds. How do you know having a reaction means you're bipolar rather than just having side effects from the medicine? I see you explained her reasons but it still doesn't seem so clear. I hope you get it figured out. If you are bipolar and get on the right med, you'll feel a whole lot better, I bet! Hang in there. It's okay to post a lot while T is away.

Those particular side effects tend to happen more to people who are bipolar, in the way the brain chemistry is affected.....and the fact that it happened to me so fast too (when generally anti-d's are supposed to take a little longer to have a mood effect) is also a sign. But my med reactions aren't all that she's looking at either.....my emotional history, some difficult past experiences where I've done stupid things, the fact that I always got really, really up after my kids were born (no problem with baby blues here!), etc, etc. I did some soul searching and journaling a few days ago and really saw things in my past, particularly the last 10, maybe 15, years that seem a lot clearer to me......much as I'd like to not have this diagnosis, it fits me quite well, actually.

[rainbow8]

I know it's not the greatest diagnosis to have (but is any?) but think what a relief it will be to know the reason for your behavior! And it can be treated successfully!

[Sannah]