[DelusionsDaily]

So Wednesday was a really difficult session and after running into my worst nightmare things exploded inside...pretty well contained it on the outside. I scheduled an extra appointment for this monday and now that I dont ALWAYS feel so raw...I kinda dont want to go. Im afraid I will leave feeling so raw again but I know I should go in and talk to her. I gotta stop avoiding feeling and face and that is the safe place to do it without judgement or criticism. Ugh...its tough but I gotta do it. It doesnt mean I gotta look forward to it.

[Suratji]

I wonder what 'crazy' is. I feel that way sometimes too - like my emotions are so bursting from my insides that if they don't come out I will die. Trying to behave normally and act calm and serene can be a challenge. I called my T today and left a message that I don't want to ever see her again. Too hard. But in the message I also said that I would be there next session. Only thing saving me now is intense physical exercise.

[PTSDlovemycats]

Well, I don't know why you are thinking that you might be crazy. I don't think that you are. I hope you and your T are able to work something out. Good luck.

[rainbow8]

It's hard to feel in therapy--for some of us, anyway. I hope you keep your appointment even though you have mixed feelings about going. Therapy is difficult!!

[DelusionsDaily]

I think I feel crazy because I am despising the neediness I feel so often. Grrrr! I hate feeling needy it makes my skin crawl. I am so used to being the one keeping it together and now I need someone...? That and its getting harder to resist and or contain the feelings that seem to want to bust out of me. Therapy is such tough work.