[BlessedRhiannon]

I was sooo stressed about going to my session today, because I was still embarrassed and anxious about the change in routine (where my T had stopped walking me to the door) and our phone conversation about it earlier this week.

She told me again that it was not a rejection. I told her that when she walked me to the door, that I felt acceptance, a connection with her, and support from her. When she didn't I felt like she was taking all that away. My T told me that she'd thought about her change in behavior and she thinks that the reason she changed is that she felt our relationship had shifted, it was less formal and stilted, more casual and comfortable. That completely surprised me, and pretty much rocked my world! She viewed not walking me to the door completely opposite of how I'd viewed it! I saw it as a rejection, and she saw it as a deepening of our relationship. I was stunned. I seriously just sat there staring at her for a few minutes, and trying not to cry! My trust for her skyrocketed. It was amazing!

I had some amazing revelations in this session, and the whole range of emotions. I started out totally stressed, then went to laughing, then nervous, then stunned, then almost crying. At the end of the session, I felt drained, but really good. I told my T that I wished I could just sit in her office and hang out for another hour, but I knew I couldn't...I had to get back to work and so did she.

[rainbow8]

That sounds really wonderful!!! I'm glad you had such a fulfilling, productive session!!

[missbelle]

So glad...it made for a perfect day for you!!

[granite1]

wow thats awsome.i think it is great you had the courage to ask and now you have your answer.sometimes good can come out of asking questions

[SpiritRunner]

awesome!

[Liam Grey]

That's really beautiful to hear!

[WePow]

That is amazing that you were able to be this honest! Good going!!!!

[BlessedRhiannon]

Originally Posted by WePow

That is amazing that you were able to be this honest! Good going!!!!

Thanks! That's actually kinda what my T said to me too. She said she was proud of me for bringing it up, being honest, and talking about it. A year ago, I would have either just canceled all future sessions, or stuffed it down and not talked about it.

The cool thing about my T is she totally understands when I get stuck with thoughts that I can't seem to voice and she's willing to be patient and help me get the words out. I was stuck trying to tell her why I was so bothered about not being walked to the door, and I just couldn't form a coherant sentance. First, she told me that it's okay to "speak in rough draft." I told her I couldn't even do that, so she told me to just pick 5 of the words that were floating in my brain and say them out loud. I managed 4 words, but it was enough to let me organize my thoughts enough to talk.