[rainbow8]

I'm with my kids and grandchildren so I'm doing pretty well away from my T. I only emailed her once, in fact! I think about her a lot, and I've listened to the meditation recording she made for me, but I haven't felt too needy. I know it's mostly because I'm the one away, not her, but I think some of it is that I feel like she is with me all of the time. It's a good feeling!

I'm going to email her now because I want to see if I can change my appointment to a week from Wednesday instead of Tuesday. So it will be more than a week until I get back home. I also want her to email back. She didn't email Friday because I didn't email her, I assume.

My worst problem is that my allergies are terrible and I don't feel well physically, even with taking my allergy medicine. Being outside makes me feel worse, but I'm supposed to be outside for my mental health! So, it's a dilemma, especially since I liked walking with my T so much. I don't know what I'm going to do about that.

[Fox]

It's great to hear that you're coping well without your T and staying in touch with what you've learned from her.

Good luck with your allergies. The wind here has kicked my allergies up bad so I sympathize.

[Brighid]

Originally Posted by rainbow8

I'm with my kids and grandchildren so I'm doing pretty well away from my T. I only emailed her once, in fact! I think about her a lot, and I've listened to the meditation recording she made for me, but I haven't felt too needy. I know it's mostly because I'm the one away, not her, but I think some of it is that I feel like she is with me all of the time. It's a good feeling!

I'm going to email her now because I want to see if I can change my appointment to a week from Wednesday instead of Tuesday. So it will be more than a week until I get back home. I also want her to email back. She didn't email Friday because I didn't email her, I assume.

My worst problem is that my allergies are terrible and I don't feel well physically, even with taking my allergy medicine. Being outside makes me feel worse, but I'm supposed to be outside for my mental health! So, it's a dilemma, especially since I liked walking with my T so much. I don't know what I'm going to do about that.

You seem like you are at peace despite being away, in person, from your T. That has to be a good feeling to know you can be away and I am assuming, be relatively ok......... knowing she is only an email or phone call away. I don't know you, persay, but I am deeply moved to tell you that I am proud of you. I have not been able to be away from my T and be at peace like you seem to be. That is great!!

[Can't Stop Crying]

Good job going without T, you should be proud of yourself! Sounds like you are coping well.
About the allergy thing...have you talked to your doc? My doc gives me, my son, and my husband a one-time shot in the spring for seasonal allergies...it is amazing...it targets the pollen, mold, etc in your specific area. Within 24 hours we were all symptom free and it lasted the whole season!

[granite1]

wow rain this is awsome i know it isnt always easy for you to be away from your T and how thinking about her can get in the way of being able to relax and enjoy.it seems you are really making an effort and that is so cool .i am also shure she will be thare for you when you are done visiting with your family.how is your daughters basement comming along???

[WikidPissah]

Good job Rainbow!!!

[ECHOES]

rainbow, I'm glad your time away from T is going well and that you can feel her with you. That is a great feeling.

I'm sorry that your allergies are so bad, though. THAT is really miserable!

[dizgirl2011]

I think you are doing great and sound really positive! I also hope your allergies calm down a little for you as it's hard to stay mentally positive when your not feeling great physically.

I am also on a 2 week break from my therapist (because of easter) I have almost 1 week over, one to go.

[learning1]

Good for you Rainbow!!!

[Perna]

Sorry your allergies are acting up! Glad you are having a good T-free vacation experience. I use to plan vacations for when T wasn't going to be there too; never went away when she wasn't.

[sunrise]

Sounds like you're weathering the time away from your T really well. I hope you're able to get the schedule change you want.

Originally Posted by rainbow8

My worst problem is that my allergies are terrible and I don't feel well physically, even with taking my allergy medicine. Being outside makes me feel worse, but I'm supposed to be outside for my mental health! So, it's a dilemma, especially since I liked walking with my T so much. I don't know what I'm going to do about that.

Perhaps when you return home the allergy problem won't be so severe there and you can resume your outdoor walking program. In the meantime, maybe you can at least get some exercise by going on a walk indoors at a nearby mall. A lot of people in my area do that to avoid bad weather. But I think right now, your physical problems should take precedence and you shouldn't exacerbate your allergies. I have been in the situation where my family doctor told me to eat more red meat because I was so anemic and couldn't tolerate iron supplements, and another doctor told me to eat less red meat due to cholesterol. It just sometimes happens that what is good for one part of our health is bad for another, and we have to make the best choice we can.

[SpiritRunner]

glad you are coping well but sorry about the allergies. those stink, I have them too and don't like them either!

[PTSDlovemycats]

Great coping Rainbow! Keep up the good work!

[lastyearisblank]

Good going Rainbow. I'm going on 2 weeks here too. A lot of days right. Glad you're handing it well. Love that meditation tape from T, that sounds rather nice.

[rainbow8]

Thanks for all the replies. I'm feeling a little sad today because my T answered my email, and as usual, only commented on the positive stuff I wrote about, nothing negative, not about my allergies or anything. That's her deal with the emails but it's still hard! I wrote that I know she will say it's okay for any or all of my parts to love her, and I wrote about how much holding her hand has helped me. She never comments on anything about her but she's told me it's okay to write whatever I want. It makes me feel a little bit that it's NOT okay to write my feelings about her, but I know that's not true because she told me. It's just that she won't discuss them in the email, and will write only general, positive statements. I have an appointment for Wednesday, May 4 (or whatever date Wed. is).

Can't Stop Crying--why are allergists still in business if there is a shot like that? I've had shots for about 8 years and still have my allergies! I will definitely ask my allergist next time I go for a shot, which will be as soon as I get back home!