[Lexicon78]

Well, I talked to one of the t's at partial today...she said she'd meet with me this afternoon, but she never did. After partial I asked her if she still wanted to talk to me. She said she was busy, and that it would have to wait until Thursday. I feel so brushed off now. I'm always getting that from people and I hate it.

So, I have such a plate-load right now and I need to wait. I've been waiting since I started going there to talk...and I have to wait even longer. I know this may sound stupid and all, but I'm really going through a lot of crap right now. Like my relationship with my bf--we're fighting constantly--and the grief issue with my mom's death, and finally my sexual abuse issues...

Right now all my issues are all rolled into one huge ball...when I talk to someone about them it seems like I can look at them more clearly...they're not all jumbled. I guess I have to wait 2 more days until I can begin to fix this jumbled mass of problems.

Waiting isn't much fun but I have found that I don't have to stay stuck while waiting. Sometimes I had even used the waiting for an excuse not to figure out the problem hoping that others would come up with the solutions for me but what it boiled down to is there are ways to work on things that can help clear things up a littile such as journaling, drawing, writing a list of pro's and cons, relaxation type activities, taking your feelings out on clay and playdough so that the emotions arent clouding the problem so you can see it clearer.. There is so much that can be done during the waiting and I found out alot of times with therapy professionals they use the waiting technique to give the person time to try and work things out by themselves which in turn adds to their self worth and self esteme. Nothing to lose by trying right.

[Rapunzel]

{{{{{{{{{{{Lexi}}}}}}}}}}}}}

It's hard to wait when you're ready to talk about something and work on it, isn't it? I hope that you will get the time and attention and listening and understanding that you need on Thursday, and not be too uncomfotable in the mean time. Good for you for letting someone know that you need to talk and are ready! You recognized your need and took a step towards getting it met. That's not easy either.

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((Lexico))))))))))))))) It is so hard when you feel let down by someone. Especially a t. I know it is hard but try and hang in there until Thursday. If you would like PM me. I am sorry that you are having such a hard time. Please take care of yourself.

[kimmydawn]

(((((((((((((Lexi))))))))))))))) It's so hard to wait when it feels as though time is the essence.

I'm sorry you have to wait until thurs. However, I do hope you get what you need at that time.

Be safe,

KD