[granite1]

so today we ended up sitting on the floor together playing a game i didnt get to tell her about the week i had but i did say something about being scared she would get angry with me and how i felt like i was bringing home a bad reportcard to the mother.her responce was now i understand but i hope you know that it is you getting angry at yourself that i would never get angry at you.or something like that.we mostly played a game on the floor and talked about colors and putting them to parts of me like i would be pink,the angry protecter part of me that doesnt want to talk would be red .and blue is the color watching over me,Tshe decided thiswe talked about pink red and plue and how they all worked.so as usural T will not be thare next week so i have two weeks to keep myself busy.i decided to write a story about how pink red and blue came alongand share it with her when she comes back.

[WePow]

(((((Granite)))) That sounds like a WONDERFUL idea! Good job going into session :-)

[granite1]

Originally Posted by WePow

(((((Granite)))) That sounds like a WONDERFUL idea! Good job going into session :-)

thanks wepow.i am hoping this will be a gentle way of telling her about how it was for me growing up.and to keep be busy and have a bit of fun

[PTSDlovemycats]

I agree that sounds awesome Granite!

[granite1]

Originally Posted by PTSDlovemycats

I agree that sounds awesome Granite!

i just want to find a way to be able to tell her how it was i dont think i will ever be able to talk about it.todays session was ok although she was kind of strange when i did ask her if i told her about my bad week and she would get really angry at me.she didnt at first say she wouldnt but i cant remember what she said.she did eventually say she wouldnt be mad at me.i think she said something first about being safe.

[rainbow_rose]

Originally Posted by granite1

i decided to write a story about how pink red and blue came alongand share it with her when she comes back.

I think this is Wonderful, granite!

[rainbow8]

granite, it sounds like a really productive session. I am SO glad your T is doing things a little differently, like sitting on the floor and playing a game with you. Talking about the parts of you using colors is such a great idea. Maybe I will ask my T if we could do that too. Writing a story for T is such a good plan!!!

[jazzy123456]

this all sounds so good ! I've been responding to some tough posts, so it makes me happy to hear this good for u.

[granite1]

Originally Posted by rainbow8

granite, it sounds like a really productive session. I am SO glad your T is doing things a little differently, like sitting on the floor and playing a game with you. Talking about the parts of you using colors is such a great idea. Maybe I will ask my T if we could do that too. Writing a story for T is such a good plan!!!

rain it was a realy good session i think. i wish i could remember what she said about if i told her something that got her angry.she said some strange stuff that i was uncomfortable with.probibly why i dont remember it.i probibly wont ever ask her.it was so cool just hanging out playing a game.she just seems so differnt.she seemed a lot less scary.i have gotten the first page of the story written.

[granite1]

this is part of the story it is sounding kind of stupid dont know if i will share it with her or not.
Hi, I’m pink and I thought I would introduce myself to you.
I’m the quiet one.
Was I always this way??? I don’t know but it works.
Many other colors came to join me. I had no need for them, I was fine.
I didn’t want any others complicating things.
As much as I may have wanted to, some colors I couldn’t avoid.
These were my primary colors. They were always on my mind and in my head.
These colors were much bolder than I.
It was always my goal to be accepted or invisible to these colors.
I never really did get it right.


One day BLACK sent me to stay in the alone place.
This was often done for many different reasons.
Most times I didn’t mind.
I always knew that, although it could be lonely and scary at times,
The alone place was safe
Primary colors didn’t like the alone place and rarely entered.
I didn’t have to see the primary colors .I could pretend they didn’t exist.
I soon learned that I could pretend anything.
I could create a world that the primary colors didn’t exist.
All except one, RED.

[rainbow8]

Your story is wonderful, so far, Granite!! I am very glad you are writing it.I am also so happy your T seemed less scary. I wonder why she never played games with you in the past! Maybe she got my telepathic messages to her to behave differently with you!

I feel comfortable with my T when we walk together or the time I fingerpainted. We haven't played a game but that's the same idea. It gets us to realize that our Ts are just people, like us, except they have experience so they can help us too! Also, you get involved in the activity and forget it's hard to talk, right? That's always how it was for me.

[granite1]

Originally Posted by rainbow8

Your story is wonderful, so far, Granite!! I am very glad you are writing it.I am also so happy your T seemed less scary. I wonder why she never played games with you in the past! Maybe she got my telepathic messages to her to behave differently with you!

I feel comfortable with my T when we walk together or the time I fingerpainted. We haven't played a game but that's the same idea. It gets us to realize that our Ts are just people, like us, except they have experience so they can help us too! Also, you get involved in the activity and forget it's hard to talk, right? That's always how it was for me.

that is what it is like.i seemed to say simple things but the big thing was i didnt feel that panic i did the last time i sat on the floor that made me not want to do it again.i use to love sitting on the floor untill i had memories of sitting on the floor in my room the day my T turned into bad T for the session.this time was differnt.i did need to look at the door a few times but mostly i listened to Tand played the game and talked a little

[Xeneon]

Thats awsome!!!! I like your story. Even if you don't give it to her, you kept yourself bizzy and thats what matters. One time I thought about making a cake with all kind of colors and putting the colors on that she helped me the most but of course I didn't because I was scared and now i'm gladed because looking back on that whole situation was bull crap. I still have most of the problems i had then. Anyways I think your very creative. Take care!!

[rainbow_rose]

I like your story, granite. doesn't sound stupid to me.