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Old Jul 21, 2011, 09:20 AM
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i have been so consumed with fear and anger and hurt feelings and a bunch of out of controle behaviors that i have totally overlooked this simple fact.3 out of the last 4 sessions with my T i have been able to talk some.some sessions more than others but if you only knew how big this is.and i didnt really even notice untill today as i was writing in my journal about all i remember saying and all i can say is OMG.at the same time i am scared of this and kind of hopefull.i am terrified of my T at times .so scared if i say or do the wrong thing she will rip me to shreds.but i have said some prity bad things and she has been ok.only one other T have i ever been able to talk to.i so hope i can get to that point with this T
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Old Jul 21, 2011, 10:03 AM
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Wow!!!!!!!!! Excellent!!!!!!!!!!!
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Old Jul 21, 2011, 09:31 PM
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I've noticed this, granite. I think it's awesome!
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there is nothing to do or undo.
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Has no real importance at all,
has little reality whatsoever.

Don't believe in the reality
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Old Jul 21, 2011, 09:33 PM
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Keep it up Granite!!
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Old Jul 21, 2011, 09:43 PM
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that sounds really promising and great you were able to realise it
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Old Jul 22, 2011, 05:58 AM
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thanks for your suport PCrs again i am so glad i have a place i can share this stuff with other than my hubby .i do talk to him about some stuff but i dont expect him to fully understand. can you imagine how awquard it would be if someone asked you "wow you are in such a good mood ,why are you smiling so much?"and you said "it was so awsome i spoke to T in 3 of my last 4 T sessions isnt that awsome nope i just dont think it would work lol
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Old Jul 22, 2011, 06:12 AM
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Old Jul 22, 2011, 12:12 PM
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I'm so happy for you! It sounds like more than a mere glimmer!!...
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Old Jul 22, 2011, 01:29 PM
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You found your way through this granite. It was a struggle, but you did it! Remember this next time you come to what appears as a road block. You will find your way through the next ones too. And when you get really good at it, it won't be such a struggle anymore.
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Old Jul 22, 2011, 01:40 PM
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Yeah stormyangles (sic) started out the week saying what SHE was going to do and really it kind of cascaded over and through the whole group. I went halfway today - I told him what I was afraid to say, he said it was okay, but then I didn't tell him WHY I was afraid, which was really the whole point. It will keep for next week. But thank you guys for double-dog daring me, even if you didn't realize you did!
ps. I love the dancing dynamite or chili pepper or whatever the h it is! granite1 IS awesome!
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Old Jul 22, 2011, 04:34 PM
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granite, I am so proud of you!!!

hankster, I love these dancing chillies too!
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Old Jul 22, 2011, 07:36 PM
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That is so awesome Granite!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Old Jul 22, 2011, 11:58 PM
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I've noticed that as well, granite - and I think you're doing FANTASTIC!!!

And I totally get what you're saying about other people who don't have experience with therapy having no clue....Thank goodness for PC. A group of those who know....

((( HUGS )))
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Old Jul 23, 2011, 05:47 AM
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You found your way through this granite. It was a struggle, but you did it! Remember this next time you come to what appears as a road block. You will find your way through the next ones too. And when you get really good at it, it won't be such a struggle anymore.
thanks sannah
not so sure about the idea that i have gotten through all this.in fact it scares the heck out of me.the idea of talking to my T openly or at all just doesnt feel right at all.it feels uncomfortable and scary.like it isnt me saying these things.in fact i dont want it to be.i dont know why it is like this it just is.i guess it doesnt have to be perfet i just hope it really will just get a bit easier.i wish i could explain better but it seems i cant
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Old Jul 23, 2011, 05:52 AM
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Yeah stormyangles (sic) started out the week saying what SHE was going to do and really it kind of cascaded over and through the whole group. I went halfway today - I told him what I was afraid to say, he said it was okay, but then I didn't tell him WHY I was afraid, which was really the whole point. It will keep for next week. But thank you guys for double-dog daring me, even if you didn't realize you did!
ps. I love the dancing dynamite or chili pepper or whatever the h it is! granite1 IS awesome!
glad you took that risk hankster.believe me i know how hard it is.i called my T because i was feeling so bad and confused about her feelings.i thought she was so angry at me i was afraid to go to my next session.when she called back to tell me weverything was ok i was to scared of the answer to even really ask her what i wanted which was if she was going to be angry again monday.oh well i did it half way also but it is ok and i feel better about going on monday because she didnt sound mad at all over the phone.
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Old Jul 23, 2011, 05:57 AM
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RAIN- thanks for all your suport

googly-thanks i hope all is well with you

MUE- thanks i dont know how fantastic it really is because mostly i am scared to death about it.none of it feels right but i know it must be.
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Old Jul 24, 2011, 10:59 AM
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not so sure about the idea that i have gotten through all this.

in fact it scares the heck out of me.the idea of talking to my T openly or at all just doesnt feel right at all.it feels uncomfortable and scary.

like it isnt me saying these things.in fact i dont want it to be.

i dont know why it is like this it just is

.i guess it doesnt have to be perfet i just hope it really will just get a bit easier.
I didn't say that you got through all of it. You found a way to get through this first part.

It is this way for you with your T because of your mother. You had a dysfunctional upbringing which left you unable to function in many areas and now you need to learn how to function.

I'm glad that you are realizing that it doesn't have to be perfect because it ain't going to be. Moving forward is messy and sloppy and anything but perfect. And this is totally okay!

It will get easier granite........
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