[delicatefade26]

Okay I have a session tomorrow...and I'm extremely anxious, not having it last week threw me off (I learned the hard way that it is not a good idea to cancel impulsively when you are feeling resistant). Also-I have so much to talk to him about-my family member is still in psych ward and I am not even sure I can talk about that without completely losing it...but on top of that I want to tell him something that I can't get out of my head about something that happened when I was younger...I also want to read him a journal entry when I was having a really rough night-he has been asking for some of the things that go through my head at night when I'm upset or can't sleep-and I was finally able to write some out-and I want him to know...I just don't think I have enough time for all of this and it's stressing me out...to the point that I might completely shut down and not really talk about any of that...what should I do? pick one of these? gah my stomach hurts b/c I'm so worried about it...I hope I can sleep tonight

I would write it all down, as much as you can, and then number them in order of priority. Which things ABSOLUTELY need addressed NOW? And which can be 'scheduled' to talk about next time? If all of them need addressed, I would definitely without a doubt make the list and hand it over immediately and say you need to somehow address all of this. T may have to put a 'bandaid' on some things because of timing, but could offer coping skills and tools until next time, and tackle what he feels would be appropriate right now.

It's so hard when we have so much going on, and then it feels SO BIG that we shut down. Been there. I wish you luck.

[delicatefade26]

Thanks Stormyangels I will make my list in the morn-and I think that I need to believe that what comes out and is talked about is what needs to happen-and that it will all work out eventually...I hope this beliefs safeguards me from shutting down! I will update ya'll tomorrow! I'm going to attempt to sleep!!

Originally Posted by delicatefade26

I think that I need to believe that what comes out and is talked about is what needs to happen-and that it will all work out eventually...

I really, really believe this, and trust in it.

Sometimes there is just so much going on in my life and in my head...stuff that's happening right now and stuff from my past...and I have no idea how I'm going to figure out what to talk about and how to talk about it.

But I think over the years, I've come to trust that what needs to be talked about will be talked about. I try not to have expectations, and I ESPECIALLY try not to judge myself around it. I pray on the way there that I'll get what I need from session, and I go and sit down and just see what shows up.

Sometimes T has told me over the years "we're right where we're supposed to be, doing right what we're supposed to be doing. this couldn't happen any other way than how it's happening"...and it feels so true.

I think every session is important...the lighthearted ones, the deep ones, the disorganized ones, the ones where we cover a lot, the emotional ones, the silent ones....and every session has lessons and potential for healing.

What if you just show up tomorrow and trust that whatever comes up is "right"?

[rainbow8]

Very well said, tree.