missing T/scheduling problems/rant

I haven't seen my T in a whole month. One day, she was out sick and other days she was booked up. I will see her next week. But, my availability will no longer match hers unless I ask work for extra time off to go see her. I hate to do that because a co-worker teasingly asked if I had a hot date. I said no and that I had an appointment. If I try to do that on a regular basis, I worry that my co-workers may really wonder what I am doing on a weekly basis. But, I have developed a slight dependence on her sootheing my worrries some. Grrrr. So I don't know if I might have to change T or something else. I like this T and hate to go through the crap of talking to the EAP case manager and explaining all this. I worry my T will think I am an dump because she warned me of possible scheduling problems and I knew that my schedule would change in the new year. But, I just wanted to get rid of some of my distress. I don't think about the future when I am highly worried in the present. I left a message with a warning about this so that she knows when we talk next week. Why can't I do a better job of making T choices? Then again, how can I make good decisions when I was having trouble sleeping, worry headaches, constant worrying throughout work, etc? What an excuse? Why do I have the capacity to worry my self goofy? Why can't I stop worrying? I mean I can literally worry my way into a headache and make everyone think that I am sad all the time. /I think I will stop ranting now.

we can't make good decisions when we are tired and stressed out. don't blame yourself for the scheduling problems. silly! we do the best we can and then we go on along. just remember that we're all struggling and we are here to listen and care about you. xoxoxo pat

exactly. (more on this later)

IMO you should stick with a good T. IDK but maybe someone here (WW?) can give you tips about how to take time off for this... but if you don't .. are you going to be able to continue working in the long run? sigh. TC

I met T yesterday. I think I will just take a shorter shift every other week to talk to her. I hope that works out.