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granite, it took me four years to change my appts from morning to afternoon, 3 years to change to consecutive days. it's not just another appointment. you are working on the transference aspect of it when you say, you would rather just deal with it than ask for something. that is a very good insight, I think.

Hope everything goes well for you today Granite.

thanks SWE believe it or not i think i am ok so far today.i woke up with a small amount of panic about everything but it was managesble.i was even thinking about SI late last night but didn't.felt kind of good about this(starting a thread in SI forum)but so far today i am feeling ok .i am feeling kind of brave and may talk some but worried ill get overwelmed.may even think about bringing my stuffy that i havnt been brave enough to bring yet.i dont know what my session will bring but i hope i can talk some.lately i have been a bit chatty so we will see.lat week i was sad because i was missing her so i think i need to just remember this and not my fear.

I hope that you will one day be able to tackle this granite because things like this are what we go to therapy to change. If you could bring yourself to address this with your T and learn how to speak up for what you want it would improve your life so much!

You probably had to hide your feelings from the mother because she was repulsed by them or would laugh? Your T is not the mother. Working through this would break that transference and set you free from this.

If you ask her for what you want then you are filling your needs.

Then if you see it this way then you have to go back to her and tell her that you saw it this way then you two keeping working on it until you work through it.