[learning1]

Has anyone else felt like this? I think I'm being kind of ridiculous. I felt good after the last two sessions. That doesn't usually happen so many times in a row. T was being very supportive and encouraging. We talked about some stuff from childhood that was a little awkward but not too hard. He said it was good work. I kind of wish I didn't have to go back this week because I don't want those good feelings to go away.

Yes, I understand. Whenever I have a really good session, I'm a little apprehensive about going back because I've also had some really painful ones and I know they can't all be great and I hate to lose the good feeling. I try to remember though that without the ones where I'm left feeling bad, I can't appreciate the ones that leave me in a good place.

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by learning1

Has anyone else felt like this? I think I'm being kind of ridiculous. I felt good after the last two sessions. That doesn't usually happen so many times in a row. T was being very supportive and encouraging. We talked about some stuff from childhood that was a little awkward but not too hard. He said it was good work. I kind of wish I didn't have to go back this week because I don't want those good feelings to go away.

I have felt like this.

And it's true, your next session might not feel so good. You are sure to have a bad session sooner or later. But you will have BETTER sessions too.

[lastyearisblank]

Awwww! Yeaahhhh! Of course it's hard to go back when things just got good. No, you're not being ridiculous. I think about it like this. If you go back, and everything's as good as it was last week, then you get three in a row! if you go back, and it's a horrible session, no connection, nothing is working... then you can talk w/ your T about why it's not working and fix the rupture . That to me qualifies as a good session even if it's hard to say "sorry this feels bad". Even if he didn't get it right that time, you can set it right so that next time there can be more of the good sessions. If that makes sense.

[mcl6136]

for me, it was intermittent positive reinforcement, followed by a dreadful session, that I found most painful with cold, distant T.

[roadtrip]

It doens't sound ridiculous at all. I can definately relate. Think I had issues with someone consistently showing support, listening etc and it scared me a great deal. Support, well did I deseve that and what price would I really need to pay were questions I was afraid to even ask myself then. I was just waiting for T to do what I had experienced before and consitent support was not it. It helped a lot to talk to T about it though. It totally makes sense.

[Wren_]

it sounds totally understandable to me ... that sense of going back and having a bad session might even take away from the previous good ones; it would be nice if we could press a pause button on the good feelings and good sessions so that that could stay with us and carry us through and even impact so the next session could also be good. I hope it will be for you; and that you can share what you are nervous about now, with your T

[dizgirl2011]

Originally Posted by learning1

Has anyone else felt like this? I think I'm being kind of ridiculous. I felt good after the last two sessions. That doesn't usually happen so many times in a row. T was being very supportive and encouraging. We talked about some stuff from childhood that was a little awkward but not too hard. He said it was good work. I kind of wish I didn't have to go back this week because I don't want those good feelings to go away.

Yes I have definately felt this way and also felt that I was being silly for worrying about the next session not being as good, or even going badly. I think it's a natural thing for many people as we always hope our sessions will go well.

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by mcl6136

for me, it was intermittent positive reinforcement, followed by a dreadful session, that I found most painful with cold, distant T.

You've often mentioned this cold and distance. That must be very painful.

I thought my T was cold and distant, but I now think:
1. It was hard for her to be warm and close when I kept pushing her away.
2. However warm and close she was, I couldn't have seen it because I was so paranoid.

We don't want to go back after a bad session and we don't want to go back after a good one. What is T to do?