Hate going into T.....

Hey all, anyone else hate going into T not knowing what to talk about. i very strongly feel that way this week. I know last week we touched on some important things in my letter will there be more or something else? Ugh,,,the dread of ot knowing.....its really irritating me.

My T almost always asks me whether there's anything I want to talk about. Most of the time I bring a list with me, just so I won't have that problem of not knowing what she might want to bring up. Could you do that?
Although really I think maybe I get more out of a session when we run out of my stuff & she suggests something. I tend to bring up things we've worked on a lot & I'm pretty comfortable with.

I go to T every week not knowing what to talk about. It's frustrating and a little scary..... but, we start chatting and that always leads to something that's important. I know it's not the best way, but I'm so uncomfortable going in there , flopping myself down in a chair and saying ,"Hey T..... I had this dream about xyz, and I can't get it out of my everlovingmind!!"

I feel like I'm a burden...... and I sooooo don't want to be.

This wierd for me though because i almost always go in with nothing specific to talk about. I think the anxiety is just because the depression is getting worse and there was alot in that last week that we could talk aboutbut not sure i can right now.

((((Melisssad81)))) hugs to you. However you are feeling is ok. Therapy is a safe place to talk about it. You could even say, " I hate coming in here not knowing what to talk about. My depression is getting worse, there is a lot we could talk about, but I'm not sure I can right now." In fact you just said said exactly, how I and probably how a million other people feel. You took the words out of my mouth. I think, if i said that to my T that i just started seeing, i'd feel better.

(((Karebear)))) why do u feel like a burden. Hugs to u. U are in therapy. Talking about u is normal in therapy.

I know that's how it's supposed to be likewater...... I have just never felt comfortable in talking only about me, or about me at all. It seems so self centered to me (I know it's not, but I can't help it) - I was taught to always think of other people and never to think of myself, so that's just naturally what I do.

I love not knowing what to talk about. It means I'm happy. When I'm unhappy, I generally have a full agenda.