I need a hug

beautiful.mess · Dec 08, 2011, 05:11 PM

Thanks again guys.

I read somewhere that when you're in therapy, it should be the center of your life. After thinking about it, it occurred to me that it's the center of my life without even trying!! It literally sucks the life out of me. I literally come home and feel like I went and did a hard days work; that's how exhausted I feel.....physically, mentally, and emotionally.

I appreciate the support here sooo much.

Which leads me to my next question.....how did people in therapy survive IRL before the internet?

beautiful.mess · Dec 08, 2011, 05:13 PM

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Originally Posted by Nelliecat

(((((beautiful)))))

How are you doing today?

I'm OK. A lot better than yesterday. I just hate knowing that right when I'm starting to feel back to "normal" it will be time to go to my next session.

But I'm not worrying about that right now. One step at a time, right?

CantExplain · Dec 08, 2011, 05:41 PM

Hugs to you!

CantExplain · Dec 08, 2011, 09:02 PM

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Originally Posted by beautiful.mess

I hate being in therapy. I don't know if it's helping. Maybe it is but I hold back a lot. I'm afraid of exposing who I really am.....who I REALLY am, to another human being. I hate the fact that I can't trust my T yet. I hate that I can't/won't completely let him in. I don't want to be dependent on him. I don't like the "therapeutic relationship" and the unbalanced nature of the whole thing (I struggle with this a LOT....I've brought it up in T and have gotten really nowhere as of yet). I hate the fact that I'm so impatient with myself. I hate the life that I had growing up and that I'm even in therapy. I hate how I'm a grown adult who can't get her crap together long enough to function like a "normal" person without therapy. I don't like how long it's taking me to "make progress" with my therapist and with myself and my problems.

It's very painful and discouraging, I know.

I hope that one day you will be able to trust your T and be as open with him as you are with us.

beautiful.mess · Dec 08, 2011, 11:21 PM

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Originally Posted by CantExplain

It's very painful and discouraging, I know.

I hope that one day you will be able to trust your T and be as open with him as you are with us.

Thank you for your kind words.

I think the only thing that is helping so much is the fact that i can bring it all here, to this forum, and know that others know EXACTLY what I'm talking about.

CantExplain · Dec 09, 2011, 01:04 AM

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Originally Posted by beautiful.mess

I read somewhere that when you're in therapy, it should be the center of your life.

It will be whether you want it or not!

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