Emergency session

I'm having a horrible day...I don't feel well-I messed up at my internship...I keep having really bad thoughts...so I called T (I've only talked to him on the phone twice) and asked if he could see me tonight-he was like what's going on? I started crying just saying I was having a really bad day...so he is going to see me tonight...he was like hang in there...ugg..I hate feeling this way-but I'm glad he is doing this for me...now I just have to make it til 8:30

Take a deep breath. I'm not sure what messed up is but when I hear the words "messed up" with "internship" I think well maybe its not too big of an issue even though we would all like to not make mistakes. At my work, we don't give the internships too much responsibility and every thing is reviewed. So maybe if you could step back and imagine it happened to someone else to see if you could gain some perspective...

Have patience with yourself...if you are an intern you are still learning and you will make mistakes...

I'm so glad you are brave enough to call T and ask for what you need. I'll be thinking about you and know you can hang on till 8:30

Hang in there!

((((hugs)))) I hope the session is helpful for you!

Hang in there ((((((Hugs))))))))))

Hope it goes well for you, delicate!

I hope the time until the appointment passes quickly.

((Delicate)) I'm sorry your having a bad day. I too messed up my internship in the fall. Just try to remember that it is a learning process and there is an end to it.

(((Delicatefade))) sorry about the bad day. Keep us posted.

I'm not sure what the time is there now; maybe it's 8.30 or after? I hope so and hope you were able to get through the time inbetween ... I'm really glad you phoned your T, and that he is able to see you and hope it helps

Thank y'all so much....I'll respond more after session..I have an hour and half to go...part of me feels stupid for calling because I don't feel as intense..but I guess it's still a good idea to go...my mom makes me feel bad or weird for wanting to go-saying I'm too dependent on T...whatever..it's my life

Sending you good wishes for a helpful session.

Thinking of you, ((((((delicatefade))))))

**Mention of Sui***

Thank y'all so much...if I had the energy I would reply to everyone...so T started talking about going back on meds again-then he started talking about partial hospitalization (freaked me out-I don't want to do that) or other options...we talked about the bad thoughts and he said if I ever did anything it would mess him up-because he cares a lot about me...he sat next to me at the end of the session and held my hand...saying things that I needed to hear-them when we hugged I felt his heartbeat and I had never noticed it before-and in that moment I didn't feel so dead-I felt the intense beat of life...I was shaky walking down the stairs afterwards...I'm so thankful tonight..but still just not feeling the best-but I'm working on what has to happen to get better-thank y'all for the support again <3

Glad to hear that you are feeling a bit better and that your session with your T was just what you needed. I hope you only get better from here!

Hey,

I'm really glad you got to see your therapist so quickly and that he was able to help you feel better about things than you were feeling. It can be scary to feel ourselves getting very low.

***huge hugs***

thanks for checking back in with us to leet us know whow you are.i am so glad he was able to see you last night it seemed like such a bad place to be.how are things looking now

I don't post here often, but when I saw your post, I had to respond. I'm so glad you did what you needed no matter what others (your mother ) think. Also, I'm glad your T gave you what you needed from him. Trust your gut and when you think you need something, you probably DO. Good luck.

It's so, so great that you took care of your needs and listened to what was inside of you - and even went after feeling better in the late afternoon. This is a sign of growth and I'll never forget when my therapist looked at me with tears in her eyes and said "If you took your own life, I would be devastated."

How are you feeling today?

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I just wanted to say I'm so thankful for this forum and the support-I know I don't comment on too many posts-but I'm hoping to start feeling better soon-and one of the things I want to do when I get there is to show more support to such a great community

There is a huge part of me that thinks that partial hospitalization would be good-but I just can't afford it-my insurance doesn't cover-and they don't have financial assistance...but T believes that we have to do something-so I called the PDOC I saw for an assessment a few months ago-who said it was all personality disorder stuff-T doesn't agree that is all it is...so he wants to talk to him-he said he doesn't care what PDOC wants to call it as long as my symptoms are addressed (meds)...so I have an appointment with PDOC on Wednesday-but I'm worried T won't call him like he said he wanted to-because last time he said something about talking to him and it didn't happen (it fell around the same time I tried to terminate with T-so I can't remember what happened there) but I guess I will just make sure I make it known that I WANT T to talk to him before my appointment Wednesday! Thankfully I see T tomorrow so I can voice that then...my concern would be for if he didn't follow through on this-I would be so hurt...