[NikeBear]

Today I had a weird session. I told her how frustrated I feel because I can't bring myself to trust her and we have to keep working on our relationship. She said, "No, this is your work. This is the core of what you need."

Then I told her that I felt annoying and like I was frustrating her. All of a sudden she got this excited smile on her face and said, "I actually find this fascinating."

I don't know.. I feel weird about her saying that. I feel abnormal and like a case study.

Originally Posted by NikeBear

Today I had a weird session. I told her how frustrated I feel because I can't bring myself to trust her and we have to keep working on our relationship. She said, "No, this is your work. This is the core of what you need."

Then I told her that I felt annoying and like I was frustrating her. All of a sudden she got this excited smile on her face and said, "I actually find this fascinating."

I don't know.. I feel weird about her saying that. I feel abnormal and like a case study.

Anytime I showed ANY emotion of any kind, my therapist jumped for joy. She seemed to find something 'fascinating' in every thing I expressed. To her, it was a huge hurdle into seeking out where the real issues were.

I don't think your therapist is off on this. I can relate to how you feel about what she said. I did that, too. I once asked her why she got so excited when I basically told her off (in a nice way). She told me that it was a sign that progress was being made.

I think that therapists do study us. They look at how our body reacts to things that are being talked about in a session. They listen to the tone of our voice. They even try to see/hear what is not even being said! This is a part of their job.

[likewater]

(((Nikebear))) at least you aren't her most boring client. I don't think she meant it like you took it either. Maybe ask her next session. I think what she meant was you are fascinating and she is enjoying getting to know you, however long it takes. Wishing you good
upcoming sessions and take care.

[Chopin99]

Originally Posted by NikeBear

Today I had a weird session. I told her how frustrated I feel because I can't bring myself to trust her and we have to keep working on our relationship. She said, "No, this is your work. This is the core of what you need."

Then I told her that I felt annoying and like I was frustrating her. All of a sudden she got this excited smile on her face and said, "I actually find this fascinating."

I don't know.. I feel weird about her saying that. I feel abnormal and like a case study.

If my T described anything I said or did as "fascinating", I would feel like a lab rat in a cage and I'd be clawing the walls trying to escape the room.

I think in your case, she meant it in a good way; that you were finally revealing some feelings and that is what T's really want us to do! I empathize with the trust thing. I'm still having problems after a year.

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by NikeBear

I feel abnormal and like a case study.

I felt like this is the first year. I griped about it constantly. Yet another sign that I resented T's detachment.

Griping and resentment took up a lot of my time and energy in those days. When I'm triggered I go back there.

[elliemay]

Originally Posted by NikeBear

Today I had a weird session. I told her how frustrated I feel because I can't bring myself to trust her and we have to keep working on our relationship. She said, "No, this is your work. This is the core of what you need."

Then I told her that I felt annoying and like I was frustrating her. All of a sudden she got this excited smile on her face and said, "I actually find this fascinating."

I don't know.. I feel weird about her saying that. I feel abnormal and like a case study.

I think you knd of have to look at this from the perspective of your therapist. It *must* be fascinating to watch people open up after years of being closed off. Like watching a flower that blooms once every 5 years or a feral cat that finally accepts food and shelter.

I'm sure for some therapist's this process is quite satisfying and full of joy.