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Old Feb 03, 2012, 12:29 AM
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Well, not trying to be funny here, but really, there are limits to what someone else will do for us. I was working late one night and when I went to leave, I saw a skunk. I called the campus police and the guy said, hey, lady, I ain't gonna take a faceful of skunk spray for you - either go out a different door or wait a while, he'll probably leave himself. I just wasn't thinking clearly, it was well after midnight! I would ask you to go back to my post that starts "this isn't about T's responsibility" and answer each
question I asked, at least to yourself. I get the details of what happened. I think it's safer somehow for you to focus on how these details are "broken" and can never be fixed, and say you now distrust your T, than to say, well, T is not perfect, but the details of my PAST are what were truly broken, and T, though imperfect, CAN help me be angry at THOSE perpetrators?

Oh - but if T is not angry at MT, maybe he won't take your side against your abusers? THAT MAKES SENSE!!! That makes perfect sense to me! What a douche! No, just kidding! But is that really the point?

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Old Feb 03, 2012, 12:30 AM
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Well, ok, so, before I say anything else, I do think it's worth it to go back to T and try to work this out. I don't think this is an irreparable. And I do think that you have in the past had some really amazing connecting moments with this T, and it's not impossible that there's a way to talk through this that will help things get back on track.

T has asked me to stay and work through it. I don't know. This time feels a little different then the other ruptures.

What. The f***. Is that.

I am trying to think of ways to make what he said ok but it's really not. Even if he meant "not so vulnerable to hurt when he is not meaning to hurt you", that's still a really inappropriate question. Therapy is where you are SUPPOSED to be vulnerable, and SUPPOSED to show your genuine feelings, even when they are overblown. Even when you KNOW they are overblown. And he is supposed to take it, tolerate it, and help you find a way through it. There IS no "too vulnerable".

I could see maybe if it seemed like you were making no progress in finding ways to tolerate some of your really strong emotions, he might say that this is a repeating pattern that is making you unhappy and you (BOTH) need to find a way out of it. And yes, ultimately, you will be the one to arrive at the answer that works for you, because he can't know what will be best for you, and there will continue to be misunderstandings that you will have to find a way to endure at least partly on your own. But it's a journey you take together... not something where he says, "Could you try to be less vulnerable?" and you say, "I don't really know how to do that, what do you think?" and he says "I dunno."

Thanks, Sally. I think "journey you take together" is how I envisioned therapy. I'm not sure that is my complete experience.

I somehow missed this thread when you posted it but I went back and read it. That is some real dishonesty on his part. And his explanation makes NO SENSE. It's just defensive. I mean, let's say for a moment that he didn't tell you about MT at the time because he felt uncomfortable talking about a colleague, especially one whose approach he disagreed with. Well, what made him suddenly so comfortable with it now? And what on EARTH would make him think it was ok to suddenly drop that bomb on you and have you be cool with it? Maybe if he had said, "I'm sorry I didn't tell you this at the time, it was very complicated and uncomfortable, but here is what happened..." Something. Anything that acknowledged you at all.

Yes, I could have understood that response.

And something about how he can't do anything about your running into someone you know at the office? Uh, yes he can. He can reschedule you. So what if he has a waiting list, you are his patient NOW, why do you need to go on a waiting list? Here is what my T would do: find another patient who sees him at the same frequency who would be willing to switch times, and switch us. It's not that hard.

And letting you terminate that first time. I'm glad he admitted he made a mistake, but you need someone who is not going to let you run away in the first place. Yes, you know that you need to run TOWARD, not away, but you need someone who will HELP you with that. And the e-mail thing, which I don't think I even need to touch.

When I first came to PC, it served two purposes. First, like you, I saw that there were more nurturing Ts out there, and if I wanted to try a new style, I could find someone closer to what I felt I needed (my T was being distant and rather cold at the time). Second, I also realized how inherently talented my T really is... I saw the mistakes other people's Ts were making, and knew that my T would have just KNOWN better. It helped the rupture get repaired because I felt that if I could just get him to alter his style a little bit to make therapy more like what I needed, it could really work.

So, deciding about this T will be a similar balancing act. Are the good times good enough to endure the repair process? Do you think he "gets it"?

I want to say I think he gets it, but who am I to know? I thought it GOT it after the first rupture.

Ugh, I'm sorry you're dealing with this. "Too vulnerable." WTF.
Thanks, Sally!
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Old Feb 03, 2012, 04:01 AM
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So. Here we are.

I don't trust myself. I don't trust my T. I don't even begin to know where to start picking up the pieces?

I am a mess.

How can I do therapy and, according to T, not allow myself to be too vulnerable?
OK, I've got the story now.

I can hear that you are uncomfortable about feeling vulnerable. If you could trust T, you might find that being vulnerable with someone you trust is OK. That's the way therapy is supposed to work.

T has certainly behaved in an ambiguous fashion. He has not been "manly and straightforward" (as they used to say in England before the war).

Did he lie? And can you ever trust him again? These are questions you'll have to decide for yourself.

If my T kept something back that I thought she should have told me, I would be very upset. But I think I would stick with her all the same. The relationship is worth more to me than the issue, in this case.

I'm sorry you've had so many troubles.
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Old Feb 03, 2012, 04:08 AM
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I get annoyed with my T when he suggests I get support elsewhere like friends or family. I want to tell him, hey genius, if I had support in my regular life I wouldn't need you, would I??
I think that it's ok to tell your T that without his support, why should you open up to him?? Maybe he will recognize any countertransference on his part. To me anyways, it seems he is passing the buck on this one.
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Old Feb 03, 2012, 08:59 AM
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Did he lie? And can you ever trust him again? These are questions you'll have to decide for yourself.

If my T kept something back that I thought she should have told me, I would be very upset. But I think I would stick with her all the same. The relationship is worth more to me than the issue, in this case.

I'm sorry you've had so many troubles.
See, he didn't lie. That's what makes this so ambiguous. I guess it opened my eyes to the idea that T isn't always "truthful", and to get there, he doesn't have to lie.

I am very upset. When we met this week, T and I talked about our relationship a little. T knows I cherish our relationship, and it is because of this, I will, most likely, stay. I'll just be a different...more reserved, cautious and protected...me.
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Old Feb 03, 2012, 05:49 PM
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This is kind of abstract, and I'm a little confused. A month or so ago I read all the original posts, so I THINK I understand why MT stopped seeing you, or decreased his practice, or whatever he did? For one thing, I think he was WAY out of line in his original actions. But come to the end, I don't think current T can legally (or really wants to) speak to MT's specific issues, and that's what it sounds like you are asking for. If that's what you are basing your willingness to trust a T on, then yeah, I get what you're saying about not being able to tell about what's real and what's not real. Only I wouldn't say "real", I would say, as 3rdTime once explained to me here, the difference between concept and ... I forget the other word. The point is, your current T yes has a responsibility to help you with your feelings about MT, but it was never his responsibility to tell you exactly what MT was doing with his practice. He is not there to inform you, especially if it's a problematic situation for MT. Why would he want to "borrow" MT's problems, or in any way make them his own? So T dealt with you at the level of information you had. I think that is all he could do, ethically.
Then T should not have lied about his reasons for not speaking sooner. He should certainly not make it the patient's fault by saying, "I was trying to protect you".

In therapy, honesty about motives is just as important as honesty about facts.
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Old Feb 03, 2012, 09:57 PM
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I am very upset. When we met this week, T and I talked about our relationship a little. T knows I cherish our relationship, and it is because of this, I will, most likely, stay. I'll just be a different...more reserved, cautious and protected...me.
He's going to have to work a bit harder to regain your trust..
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