[googley]

I am really missing my T right now. I only saw her every other week in January because I have been really sick. I feel stupid for missing my T. I really just want to call her and tell her I miss her. I feel like I should be able to deal with this on my own. I feel like when I'm feeling lonely I should have other people to miss, but right now I don't. I don't feel like I should miss my T when I'm feeling lonely. Why is my life so screwed up?

[shoez]

Originally Posted by googley

I am really missing my T right now. I only saw her every other week in January because I have been really sick. I feel stupid for missing my T. I really just want to call her and tell her I miss her. I feel like I should be able to deal with this on my own. I feel like when I'm feeling lonely I should have other people to miss, but right now I don't. I don't feel like I should miss my T when I'm feeling lonely. Why is my life so screwed up?

((((googley)))))
I know what this feels like, and im sure a lot of people on PC understand...lots of us have been in this lonely place .
Sometimes I just daydream about calling my T and acting like a little kid ..showing her how scared and needy I am...
We all have these parts of us that werent cared for, so its only normal we reach out for love...with the only person who has given care continuously ..our T <3
nothing is wrong with this and ....its ok to miss ur T.

I need to hear this myself sometimes...I miss my T alot too. SOmetimes I just count the days..

(((vent all u want here mayb it will help u feel better)))

((googley)))



~shoez

[likewater]

Hi, Googley. Think it's normal to miss your T. I still miss my old T terribly. My new T is ok. Can' t afford old T. Can't talk to new T about
it. (((Googley))) call your T and tell her you miss her if you want.

[rainbow8]

I understand, googley. I always miss my T!! A lot! I don't think it means that you are so screwed up just because when you are lonely, you miss your T. When I'm sick or lonely, or scared, the first person I think of is my T! She's so nice, safe, comforting, and the list goes on and on.........

Do you know if it's all right to call her to tell her you miss her? Maybe if you have permission to do it, you'll feel better about calling.

I'm sorry you've been so sick. I hope you're feeling all better now.

[googley]

Originally Posted by rainbow8

Do you know if it's all right to call her to tell her you miss her? Maybe if you have permission to do it, you'll feel better about calling.

I'm sorry you've been so sick. I hope you're feeling all better now.

She said I can call and leave her a message. I usually make it through without calling. But she would only call back if I ask. But I wouldn't ask her to call back if I was only lonely.

I am feeling a little better every day thanks.

Originally Posted by googley

I am really missing my T right now. I only saw her every other week in January because I have been really sick. I feel stupid for missing my T. I really just want to call her and tell her I miss her. I feel like I should be able to deal with this on my own. I feel like when I'm feeling lonely I should have other people to miss, but right now I don't. I don't feel like I should miss my T when I'm feeling lonely. Why is my life so screwed up?

I know that it's hard...You can either accept that you feel this way and be with it or fight it. The latter is a lot harder and makes it more difficult to address/accept, either in therapy or on your own.

Evidence that you're not alone:
Email at 1:56pm- i just want to go to bed and for tomorrow to come as ... it's closer to being able to see you. i had this anxiety dream this morning that i was a) running late for an appt, b) someone else was driving, and c) we couldn't find your office. then i found it and i just cried and cried and you hugged me. you let me go and i cried more and you hugged me again. what is wrong with me? my emotions are so messed up... i love you.
Text at 2:15pm- is there anyway that we can talk today?
(She texts backs and then calls for 15 mins)
Email at 5:31pm- i miss you and love you.

((((((((googley))))))))

I'm so sorry you've been so sick

Could you call T and just say that missing so many appointments makes you wish you could chat for a few minutes just to stay connected? If I'm not connected, I can't do the work, personally.

Thinking of you