[bazza12]

This week, so far, has been awful. And it's only Tuesday. Without going into detail there's just been a lot of things going on in my life that I just don't know how to deal with. I literally just can't process anything that's going on. Feels like I'm numb to everything, actually. So of course, this week happens to be a week where I can't see my T until Friday afternoon. Which, is only a few days away, but I don't know what to do until then.

And another thing that I'm freaking out over is this..I promised myself (and my younger sister) that I'd go to this concert thing that's three and a half hours away on Thursday and I'm panicking over it. I really, really want to go but I also know I'll be a freaking mess (internally) the whole time. I don't want to back out because I'll regret not going, but I don't know how to be okay with driving seven hours in one day and being worried about everything that can go wrong. AH. And my older sister is having this huge birthday party she wants me to go to, but I'm nervous about that too..I said I'd go and it seems like it'll be fun, but I'm already panicking.

What do I do?! My T doesn't have an email I can reach him at, and his phone number is just to his voice mail, which I've never called before..I mean, what would I even say in the voice mail anyway?
"Uhh, hi T. It's your one client who sucks at life. Call me if you have a chance? Kbye."

Originally Posted by bazza12

This week, so far, has been awful. And it's only Tuesday. Without going into detail there's just been a lot of things going on in my life that I just don't know how to deal with. I literally just can't process anything that's going on. Feels like I'm numb to everything, actually. So of course, this week happens to be a week where I can't see my T until Friday afternoon. Which, is only a few days away, but I don't know what to do until then.

And another thing that I'm freaking out over is this..I promised myself (and my younger sister) that I'd go to this concert thing that's three and a half hours away on Thursday and I'm panicking over it. I really, really want to go but I also know I'll be a freaking mess (internally) the whole time. I don't want to back out because I'll regret not going, but I don't know how to be okay with driving seven hours in one day and being worried about everything that can go wrong. AH. And my older sister is having this huge birthday party she wants me to go to, but I'm nervous about that too..I said I'd go and it seems like it'll be fun, but I'm already panicking.

What do I do?! My T doesn't have an email I can reach him at, and his phone number is just to his voice mail, which I've never called before..I mean, what would I even say in the voice mail anyway?
"Uhh, hi T. It's your one client who sucks at life. Call me if you have a chance? Kbye."

You would simply leave a message saying you are on the verge of a panic attack and would like to talk to him for a moment if he has time. And leave your number. Have you learned any coping mechanisms or sell soothing techniques? What ever you do, you have to do what you think is best for you. Be kind to yourself.

[jazzy123456]

I would have to agree with what LolaCabanna said--

"BE KIND TO YOURSELF"

sucks at life?

no.

words are a powerful thing.

give yourself GRACE to not be okay

and then after, you might be able to deal with all of the effects
of feeling panicky

its just hard when we critique the way we feel and put ourselves
down on top of being panicked...

doesn't make it any better.

hope you find releif soon.

do whats best for you.

make sure you meet your needs,

because, yes, it would be great if you could
travel and hang out

but, if your panicky the whole time,

that would not make it as fun for everyone else?
so, then, technically, it woulda been better to opt out?
see what I mean?

lol, i do it in my own life,
sometimes, I consider my self unselfish
even if I dont partcipate in something,
cus when i'm in those moments of panic,
i dont want others to be effected by it.

this doesn't mean, however, that we don't ask
for help from those closest to us when we need it!

[confuseduk]

Bazza So sorry you're going through a difficult time. You should call T and say you're struggling and could T call? It might help to hear T's voice, especially if you're under pressure

[bazza12]

Originally Posted by confuseduk

Bazza So sorry you're going through a difficult time. You should call T and say you're struggling and could T call? It might help to hear T's voice, especially if you're under pressure

I'm not sure if I can call, because we've never really discussed it..I think he'd be totally fine if I left him a voice mail. I just feel weird about doing that since I haven't told him anything that's really been going on with me. I don't want to blindside him with a bunch of stuff. Maybe I should just try harder and pull myself together. Friday isn't too far away.

[confuseduk]

Originally Posted by bazza12

I'm not sure if I can call, because we've never really discussed it..I think he'd be totally fine if I left him a voice mail. I just feel weird about doing that since I haven't told him anything that's really been going on with me. I don't want to blindside him with a bunch of stuff. Maybe I should just try harder and pull myself together. Friday isn't too far away.

Friday is REALLY far away when you're struggling, you've got nothing to lose. even if you just tell him what's going on and get it off your chest. i'm sure he'll be glad you reached out

[sconnie892]

Originally Posted by bazza12

I'm not sure if I can call, because we've never really discussed it..I think he'd be totally fine if I left him a voice mail. I just feel weird about doing that since I haven't told him anything that's really been going on with me. I don't want to blindside him with a bunch of stuff. Maybe I should just try harder and pull myself together. Friday isn't too far away.

Bazza12 - I understand how you feel. My T and I haven't discussed contacting her outside of sessions either...so it can be confusing. I like to know the boundaries before I do stuff like that.

I would agree with others who said leave him a voice mail. What's the worst that can happen? If anything it opens up to door to talk about contacting him outside of sessions when you see him Friday.

[bazza12]

Thanks for the replies, everyone. I didn't call, but I see him tomorrow so I'll be alright. And I decided to go to the concert thing.. I leave in about an hour. I'm nervous!! And I've been debating all week about going, but I saw this quote today and I took it as a sign to go. It said, "Do something today, that your future self will thank you for." So, taking that to heart, I'm going. Gonna be a long drive and I won't be getting back into town until 2 am tonight, but I know I'll be really glad I went. Crossing my fingers it all goes well.

[sittingatwatersedge]

I will sit outside & wait for you. good luck!!