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Soo...this week with T has been interesting. I had a session on Monday and cried so hard and said I didn't want to leave-I was dissociating pretty bad-T had to do a lot of grounding work-and even asked a lot if I was positive I was okay-and walked me down the stairs and made me promise I was going to be fine to go home (I was) and to email him when I got home. So then on Tuesday I called him because I woke up that morning still feeling weird (almost hungover) and my legs were still shaky and when I was in the shower my chest hurt-so I was concerned-so T said to just keep an eye on it-but that can happen.
Then I had a lot of stressful things happen in my family-emergencies-triggers-so I emailed T and we went back and fourth (I had posted the one rant I went on to him) and I look back now and feel like I was like an out of control child-and I requested to see him Saturday...he said we could-and now we are meeting tomorrow morn. However, I have this weird, guilty feeling...like I made this huge tantrum-sent him almost 20 emails in a matter of days-but I ultimately got what I wanted-he is going to see me...hmm...I have a weird feelings about it-but I'm not quit sure what...maybe I just feel like the "grown up" part of me would NEVER behave this way-but the little girl needy part doesn't know how to get what she wants without acting out..hmm...ok sorry I'm rambling-should I tell T about this tomorrow?
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Yes!! All of this is distressing now but it is an opportunity to get your T's support and help. It can bring you together to work on the most difficult stuff.
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You know what? Sometimes you're allowed to get what you want.
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I agree with Lucydog ; it's ok to get what we want/need. Don't feel guilty, you have as much right as anyone. It's ok to be needy too. If it wasn't, I'd be in big trouble.
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All of this sounds like really interesting and relevant stuff to explore with your T today. Let us know how it goes - Soup
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Isn't gOod when our we are heard.
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Bless your heart! You sound like me the past two weeks! Good for you to ask for what you need. I also sent my T tons of emails. Just this week I sent 37 !!! I have been in panic mode with high anxiety and even saw T twice already. Plus saw him a third time for the apt that was rescheduled. And I am still not all well.
T says I am in heavy PTSD response right now. And it is flat out exhausting. I even went to the ER with the physical symptoms two weeks ago! And I NEVER go to the doctor on my own but it was bad enough so I honestly thought I was having heart failure. Big safe hugs to you!
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