[jazzy123456]

I saw a old T for a year and a half.

Now, I have a new one (currently).

Therapy is depressing me and I am ready to quit.
However, my new therapist is better then my old one.
I am just too sensitive for therapy. I take everything personally.
I have a hard time understanding that this person is really a nice
person when they are not allowed to self-disclose. I always think
I am in the wrong in therapy and I am usually overwhelmed when
I leave because Yes, therapy makes me aware that in my life
there is a safe place to go but, it also makes me aware//overwhelmed
at the fact that when I leave there is sooo much about life
that is unsafe.

I am just- a part of me is really scared about quitting
because it would be the first time in about 2 years I
completely cut myself off from counseling. Even good changes
can be scary ones.

I mean, I guess, there was times BEFORE I even considered counseling
that I dealt with it and I was okay.... so maybe I just need to remember those
times.

Therapy is depressing me and I am only posting for any type of encouragement from people who have cut therapy cold-turkey or anything positive...because I'm really sad.

[Trippin2.0]

I quit T cold turkey bcoz it just depressed me even further. My logic is simple, I do what makes me happy. Figured I could go it alone,and reach out to friends when support is needed. 5 months later, it turns out I was right

[sittingatwatersedge]

Jazzy,

you're not "too sensitive for therapy", it can be really hard going. You are brave to have stuck with it so far; you can do this.

Please try to hold off making a decision until you are no longer depressed but find yourself in a time of peace. You may feel that it will never come back, but it will. In the meantime, be brave & keep going.

Come on back & post here when you feel like venting or have a question; there's someone here most all the time, and you will find a lot of caring hearts here. Good luck to you!

[Out_of_denial]

After my T of one year abandoned me, I sunk into an undescribable depression. Once I got past that, I realized that my depression that past year had been the worst ever BECAUSE of therapy. It was my T though. Sounds like that may not be the case with you, but either way, Therapy shouldn't make you more depressed.

Amy

[Perna]

You can't go back to being how you were, that won't work anymore. You have to decide if you want to struggle through and learn new stuff or suffer with what doesn't work.

[mcl6136]

Originally Posted by Perna

You can't go back to being how you were, that won't work anymore. You have to decide if you want to struggle through and learn new stuff or suffer with what doesn't work.

I agree that going back is not helpful! You were in therapy for a reason. However, I feel that you can hardly overestimate the importance of the right fit between client and t. Struggling through is hard, but therapy should also be a place where you can get that very struggle out in the open, not have your vulnerabilities exploited, as happened in my case.

Therapy is hard but it doesn't have to be constant pain. There can be moments of ease, healing, comfort.

[jazzy123456]

Originally Posted by Trippin2.0

I quit T cold turkey bcoz it just depressed me even further. My logic is simple, I do what makes me happy. Figured I could go it alone,and reach out to friends when support is needed. 5 months later, it turns out I was right

this was so encouraging. thank you. good for you

[jazzy123456]

Originally Posted by sittingatwatersedge

Jazzy,

you're not "too sensitive for therapy", it can be really hard going. You are brave to have stuck with it so far; you can do this.

Please try to hold off making a decision until you are no longer depressed but find yourself in a time of peace. You may feel that it will never come back, but it will. In the meantime, be brave & keep going.

Come on back & post here when you feel like venting or have a question; there's someone here most all the time, and you will find a lot of caring hearts here. Good luck to you!

I like what you said about waiting until I'm not depressed to make a decision but, I'm wondering how long that would actually be?

[jazzy123456]

Originally Posted by Perna

You can't go back to being how you were, that won't work anymore. You have to decide if you want to struggle through and learn new stuff or suffer with what doesn't work.

this reminds me of the saying, even when you don't make a choice, not making a choice is a choice... I am sooo grateful that I can't go back to how I used to be... thats refreshing, as I know I am sad but, I know I was worse off a year ago.

[jazzy123456]

Originally Posted by mcl6136

I agree that going back is not helpful! You were in therapy for a reason. However, I feel that you can hardly overestimate the importance of the right fit between client and t. Struggling through is hard, but therapy should also be a place where you can get that very struggle out in the open, not have your vulnerabilities exploited, as happened in my case.

Therapy is hard but it doesn't have to be constant pain. There can be moments of ease, healing, comfort.

I can sense you have been through a lot mcl6136

I totally agree, we should feel SAFE to feel vulnerable and open.

I'd say the saddness is in you and therapy is making you aware. Up to you if you want to live in avoidence or if you want to walk upright? Therapy didn't make the world around me unsafe it had the opposite effect, it was me that felt it unsafe until therapy.

[jazzy123456]

thanks eathmamma,
I don't think I meant therapy is the CAUSE of an unsafe world...

to me, the world is unsafe regardless of if I'm in therapy or not.

the fact that when I go in that room, I am free to be myself,
I feel safe-- just reinforcers my inner belief that the world we live in is an unsafe place
but, that doesn't mean I think therapy CAUSED anything in life to be that way.
its just my reminder.

hope that makes sense? lol cus it barely makes sense to me and I wrote it..

but, I'd have to agree that a portion of the sadness wouldn't be there if I felt different about myself and who I am.... but, just some of it... not all of it..

[learning1]

Originally Posted by jazzy123456

thanks eathmamma,
I don't think I meant therapy is the CAUSE of an unsafe world...

to me, the world is unsafe regardless of if I'm in therapy or not.

the fact that when I go in that room, I am free to be myself,
I feel safe-- just reinforcers my inner belief that the world we live in is an unsafe place
but, that doesn't mean I think therapy CAUSED anything in life to be that way.
its just my reminder.

hope that makes sense? lol cus it barely makes sense to me and I wrote it..

but, I'd have to agree that a portion of the sadness wouldn't be there if I felt different about myself and who I am.... but, just some of it... not all of it..

It sounds like therapy makes you aware of what could be possible if you experienced more safe relationships irl. So far you're experiencing them in therapy, but eventually you could transfer it into real life. Just an idea.

Originally Posted by sittingatwatersedge

Jazzy,

you're not "too sensitive for therapy", it can be really hard going. You are brave to have stuck with it so far; you can do this.

Please try to hold off making a decision until you are no longer depressed but find yourself in a time of peace. You may feel that it will never come back, but it will. In the meantime, be brave & keep going.

Come on back & post here when you feel like venting or have a question; there's someone here most all the time, and you will find a lot of caring hearts here. Good luck to you!

I agree with exactly what sawe wrote. It can be really hard, so give yourself credit for doing as much as you have, and try not to be afraid to tell your t you're having a hard time, or post here to get some support.

[jazzy123456]

Learning1, you are right...but, i never realized that I do need to make more of my relationships safer irl... then maybe I would feel better. as always, its good to hear from you