T tomorrow.. Can I ask for a pocket riders?

I think this is the first time that I have offically asked for pocket riders.. I need them. I see T tomorrow at 9am. He is fitting me in, and has already said he wasn't sure how much time he could talk with me.

In any case.. I need to be able to be honest with him with some of my thoughts latley.. and I am afraid that I won't be. I need his help, but I know he can't fully help me unless I am 100% honest with him. So, pocket riders would be appreciated.. Thanks so much!!!

I'll come.

Good luck. I'll be there with fingers crossed for you!

I'll be there!

I hope it goes well.

Best of luck tommorow, I'll ride along.

we will come

Good luck, healed, you've got my support. I hope it goes well for you.

Climbing in.

Trigger for talk of SA and Sui thoughts..





Thanks for all of the pocket riders!! I am kind of proud of myself, I talked about everything that I knew I needed to talk about. Both things that I have never told anybody ever (well besides my husband).

T acutally brought up abuse.. He asked me flat out. So, I finally let it out. I have never talked to anybody besides my husband about it. We just kind of grazed the surface, but he said that he understands a lot more about me and my resistance to somethings in therapy now. He acutally had thought that there was some abuse, before I brought it up. So, now I have hard work head of myself in therapy. It is kind of scary... T did say that he would push me a little bit, and ask me to talk about it, but not push me too much either. So, I need to decide how much I am ready to talk about it all.

Also, I did admit to him that I was having some sui thoughts.. it is a new thing and wasn't sure how much I should take seriously.. We contracted that I would I stay safe until next week at our next appointment. Really, he said that there wasn't much choice.. I need to promise him that I wouldn't hurt myself or I would have to go to the hospital. And he believes he can trust my word. And that I can call him if I was having those thoughts, and we can talk through it and that wouldn't gurantee me a hospital stay.

I do feel lighter.. I shared a lot and it feels good to have it out in the open. I am just hoping this week is a better week for me!!

I'm in...and I'm gonna dive head-first!

I am proud of you!

Move on over!

And I'm bringing my Australian Shepherd

MCL

I'm in

Thanks everyone.. I tried to edit my orginal message, but for some reason I am not seeing the edit button.. Anyways there is a follow up on the bottom of page 1 of this thread!! Thanks for your support!

H, so glad t was able to help. i really think they know a lot more about us than they let on.
however, there is some safety in that.

you were so brave to share with t. glad it went well