Im sorry if there are typos i am so switchy
Dissociating a lot tonight
Apoarently our surgery the other day is bringing up strong flashbacks for the inside kids who experienced abuse& surgery bringing up hard stuff
And i am not feeling goodtonight& out of pain medicine
T got too busy/ tired to see us today
So kids have to hold things in.
But bow were panicking
Because they texted T a few times and havent heard back from her
Of course the last text we got from her today was that she was so exhausted
So shes probably just asleep!!
But theyre panicked that shes had another emergency and has had to leave town again
And that they wont be able to see her brfore she goes away again
They have so much to talk about
We all do
So they are panicked and cant calm down
and we dont know when we will hear from our T and what if she disappears again on us?

Sorry i just need to have someone know whats going on because i feel so alone & im afraid something bad is going to happen

[pbutton]

I am so sorry that you're having such a hard time tonight.

I can certainly understand your worries, and the worries of your kids. I would be panicked too, with the amount of back and forth that's gone on. I wish I could give you safe, real hugs. We understand within the context of our own situation with our T, but it's not near to the level that yours has been with your T leaving the country so much. I would acknowledge to her that you know she has a lot going on, but that you're worried, and need time with her, especially if she's leaving, as much warning would be nice, and if she can see you, even if it's just a quick "Hi", hugs, "I'll be back", grab a drink, type thing!

((((((hugs))))))

[CantExplain]

((SarahMichelle))

[granite1]

[WikidPissah]

Sorry she is leaving again...that is so rough. Is there anyway she can refer you to a stand in T? I know that's weird and hard to talk to someone else...but you need support all the time, not just when T doesn't have an emergency.

Thank you.
We still haven't heard from her
Maybe she's at church or something.

I'm so sorry you are struggling at the moment, SarahMichelle. I hope you hear from T soon. Is there anything soothing or distracting you can do in the meantime?

Haven't heard from her yet. Maybe her cell phone ran out of battery or something

My sister's horse just died. We're not having a good day around here.

My stomach hurts so bad
What if something happened to her

[eurydice]

I don't think you need to be worried. Ts need time for themselves and that means you probably won't hear back until the work week. Just remember: It's the weekend and T needs time to recharge.

[karebear1]

I'm sure she's ok SarahMichelle. Why don't you try calling again?

I texted her an hour ago asking her if she is okay but I haven't heard back from her. I just have a feeling that something bad happened. I KNOW its dumb, but so many bad things happen all the time I am shaking and have a stomach ache. I know that probably her phone is out, or she's busy with her family or SOMETHING... but I would just feel better knowing.
And she is leaving again soon to go out of the country... and something happened yesterday that I really need to talk to her about before she leaves I don't know when she is going, I doubt she even has a plane ticket yet. But what if something happened and she had to leave on an emergency again? It happened a couple months ago.
I know, I'm such a stupid mess. But with my sister hurting so bad today and her horse dying this afternoon, and me being off my pain meds now from the surgery I had on Tuesday, I feel like I am just about to fall apart.

[BonnieJean]

SarahMichelle - you're not a stupid mess. It is so easy to worry when you don't hear from t. Are you okay? have you heard from t?

[karebear1]

I hope you hear from her soon SarahMichelle.