Welcome to the Couch! People of PC Psychotherapy (Part 2)

I don't know what the conversation train is right now.Ive tried reading the past few pages but my A.D.D is getting in the way.

Husband has a job interview Tuesday. We need all the luck and prayers we could get.

I don't think that's "YOUR" ADD! That is great news about Hubby, I hope it gives his morale a boost.

I hope the interview goes well.

yeah good luck to your H on Tuesday, Tryin'

I'm playing online Diplomacy. It's my first time. I think I'm doing well. I'm France and Turkey and on my first move I invaded Spain and Bulgaria. On my second, I'll take Portugal, Belgium and Greece so far I've not backstabbed any of my fellow imperialists! But those Germans better watch out! They think I like them but I am thinking containment for now, later they shall be eating croissants in Berlin! <insert evil laugh + hand wringing>

Just got back from a funeral visitation. I found some friends to go with so that made it a little easier. Now I am not sure what to do with myself the rest of the afternoon. It's too hot for any strenuous outside activities. I should try to process what the heck happened during my last session, but I just want to stay angry with t until i see her a week from Thursday.

Husband just officially received word that we lost the 3rd hearing. This will now roll to arbitration. We are up a creek without a paddle. He really needs to land a job NOW. I am so scared. I am so so so scared.

You're paddling pretty well, in my opinion. But this is a two-paddle canoe.

@Trying oh no I don't know what that means lost the 3rd hearing but it sounds really bad. I'm so sorry. Don't panic yet. Things could still work out okay. You can't panic until after Tuesday right? ((hugs))

TTGB:

Not sure if I should email a certain potential T or not, or what to say. She specializes in trauma and such, but I'm mainly dealing with psychosis and the stress of that....but I really want help with dealing with the -trauma- of experiencing psychosis...oye. I have no idea who to look for to help me with that, or even what kind of therapy to look for. I'm afraid of being laughed at and told that it's not 'real trauma'. :/ She also specializes with dissociation too though, which I have issues with, but...again, I'm worried she'll be all 'go away' the moment I mention my issues with psychosis. >.<;

Anyway, hi, I'm new this part of the forums. I don't expect advice, just wanted to vent. xD;

Welcome to the couch coyote!

Well, I've spent most of the afternoon and evening trying to process my last session and I am getting no where. I realized I don't remember most of it and the parts I do remember are painful. And I remember laughing at t. She had a slip of the tongue, but I can't even remember what it was or why I thought it was funny. Just that I laughed at t and now I feel guilty about it. I think I am going to try to sleep...don't mind me over here with the blanket pulled over my head.

Ok so I get to be the token drunk tonight....mount other...my candle burns t both ends, it will not last the nigh but oh, my friends nd in, my foes it gives a lovely light.... Homo alono with Prego dog...daisy.

morning pc peeps.

TTGB... I am thinking of you. I hope H's interview goes well on Tues.

I hate Mondays. Everyone goes back to work and I am left alone for the week.

Thanks Wikid. Thanks everyone for the support. It has been a blessing to be able to vent here. I have work today 7-5 but will come have a sit on the couch when the kids take a nap aroun 12 or so. Now it's time to go pretend all is right in the world for 10 hours. I didn't even get to work yet and I already need the day to be over.

Morning everyone.

This is something I am beginning to see in me. When I go home, sometimes it takes me awhile to remember things. From reading here, I see its somewhat common.

Ttgb - I really hope ur h's interview goes well, so that some of the pressure is taken off you.

I hate Monday's also. I'm off to work on about 4.5hrs of sleep, should make for an interesting day.

Lola - any status on the births?

@SeaSalt and sconnie892 i have the same thing. the last session with ex-T was so traumatic I don't remember 90% of it. I just remember him sitting across from me on the couch saying quietly "Look at me. Look at me." and when I did he said "I did not abandon you."

That's all I remember.

I used to forget everything about my sessions with ex-T because they were so boring and bland. There was nothing there that provoked thought or challenged me. (OK, not quite true, but most of the time that's what it was like.)

Which is a heck of a lot less traumatic, and really nothing to complain about. I'm just mad at myself for going on with it for so long.

Oh dear. I hope I dont do this. I've only had 3 sessions, first 2 were good, last one not so good. May I ask, how long did you go before changing?

I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place. I know I have a propensity to run. So while I want to give her a chance, I dont want to waste my time. T and I talked about internet dating (which I did for about 6 years) and I kinda feel like this is what I would be doing with T. You invest time and emotions (not to mention money) then you get to a point where its not working and you move on. I just dont know how easy it would be for me to start over with another T.

You guys want to hear how stupid Wiki is? I was with a very religious T for 2 years. At least twice a month he would ask me to consider having an exorcism. I would just nod, not answer, say I would think about it, and cringe. The guy thought I was evil...yet I went back every week, sometimes twice a week.

wikid..... *gulp*......are you serious?

yea, unfortunately. I never argue or confront. Now I am running from a T who is kind to me...go figure

Oh wow, I dont argue either. I hate it, I hate drama. This is something I was going to try and explain to T next time. I let things build and build.

Arguing makes no sense to me. I understand the concept of it being healthy to let things out. But for some reason I cant. My ex constantly picked fights about everything. I think it has something to do with the fact that I dont agree with "letting go," being angry, screaming, saying stuff you really dont mean ---- then 30 minutes later saying IM SORRY and all is well. I dont get that nor can I do it.

And yet people wonder when one is wary of their entire ilk.
You are not stupid. A professional with a license and degrees etc. was telling you stuff. It is like people who let drs or ministers, people who are authority figures and who society tells you trust, do or advise you to do horrible things to yourself or your children. It is difficult to know -is this something to consider or is this professional a whackjob?

You mean, how long did I go to that therapist? We had 24 sessions over about 8 months.

I wouldn't take my experience as a model for how things are likely to be for anybody else, though A lot of the issues stemmed from my fear and inability to talk, which resulted in my deceiving her about how I was feeling so I wouldn't have to talk about the difficult things. Clever, innit? For one of my first sessions with my new T I brought a letter from a friend which basically said "Don't trust the Apteryx, she lies to people and says she's OK when she isn't."

You deserve to have a T who is kind to you. (And who challenges you and helps you see more clearly and all that, of course, but not least one who is kind to you.)