Welcome to the Couch! People of PC Psychotherapy (Part 2)

I need a coffee drip....anyone

no babies yet...

morphine drip for me, please.

new pets...Daisy the pregnant squatter and my Bearded Dragon...SPIKE

Aren't you going to keep Daisy? Squatter makes her sound temporary. Spike needs a furry sister.

I agree. Daisy is a keeper. Wish I was closer I would help with those pups.

I have 4 dogs, 2 rats, a fish tank, and a bearded dragon...there is no room at the inn. She is so sweet, and after she has her babies, Ill find them all homes and unfortunately her, she is so smart and loving...I hate irresponsible pet owners.

anyone interested, i am willing to deliver or meet 1/2 way to get new owners for the babies....... US only

I do understand the idea of too many pets. I avoid living in a rural area due to my fear of being the crazy cat/dog lady.

ok so one pup for Wiki and one for ole CityDog!

ha. me too. I keep pushing my young adult children to move out so I have more canine room in this place.

only if the pup comes out a Dalmatian...I rescue Dals. They are a unique breed that is quite difficult to handle. Many idiots buy them for their kids then abandon them when they find out how much attention they need.

Here's an older pic (I only have 2 currently)

*pic removed...I felt it showed my neighborhood too much and I got paranoid...sorry*

the puppies will be spotted when it arrives.....with a pit head...LOL

i didnt even recognize the neighborhood...LOL i did see direct tv, smart woman!

heh...I realized you could see the neighbor house across the street, and panicked
Direct TV...because we like all the weird channels that cable won't give you. Plus I am not paying $10 for each movie network I like.

This is how I am feeling right now. T and I had a rupture last session. At least that's how I see it. 10 months in and she starts to talk about how her preferred method may not be working for me. 10 months of me sharing and getting attached I am horrible at getting comfortable with people. Then she added that she felt like she was taking most of the responsibility in the relationship and launched into some long example about another client that basically was telling me to "fake it until I make it". That was one of the reasons I came to therapy! To stop feeling so fake! I was zoned out after that. I know she talked more about how I need to share what I am thinking and there was some kind of apology in there I think, but I can't remember. I feel exactly like how you described above.

I am also beginning to think the rupture might be a dirty t trick...since I've been stuck of late and she's probably getting sick of me. Maybe this was her seeing if I unstick or deciding to dump me.

I should not be on here at work, but today is really really rough. Sorry for the rant above. Between the memorial stuff and a horrid t session I am just a big jumble.

Oh sconnie, bless your heart. I am so sorry you had to endure that. And after 10 months!

But maybe like you said, T did it for a good reason. Maybe at times we all get a little stuck, I dunno. This whole therapy thing has me befuddled. I swing between "wow this is the best thing since sliced bread" and "this is a crock of elephant poo-poo the size of a third-world nation."

I picture this too with my situation. After T made a big deal telling she doesnt terminate (unless you cancel too much, which I totally understand), I started to think things like what if I need to terminate her? Or what if, after a year, she says she's done all she can and I need to move on? Scary stuff.

sconnie, I'm going to give your T the benefit of the doubt that she just wants to get you "unstuck". Dumping you has probably not even crossed her mind.

My T basically told me that "fake it till you make it" is how she overcame her own problems.

I don't know if I actually ascribe to this way of thinking, but I'm trying it...have to try something!

Pretending is overrated. Don't fake it, be yourself.

Not a particularly good pic, but here's my brood:

Awww... they're so cute Chopin!

Awww!! I want to snuggle all of them!

Sconnie, I don't think your t is trying to get rid of you but it certainly does get confusing with these ts at times doesn't it? I couldn't schedule an appointment last week because our schedules just weren't working out and here I start panicking because maybe it's more than that. Maybe I need a new t and on and on I went. Becauseafter 7 months, a week came by were our schedules couldn't match? When else would I jump to the conclusion that that means the person hates me? And now for some reason I'm scared to see her this week. Anyways..... I know how you feel (((sconnie)))

Sorry for my little freak out before. Thanks everyone for the supportive posts.
I was putting together part of a memorial event that was occurring at work this afternoon and it was overwhelming. I was on the verge of tears most of the day.

I need to remember t scheduled me for two appointments at the end of session. T never talked about termination. My brain twisted it around to that. And perhaps I am getting unstuck. I've started my list of "things sconnie has been 'withholding' from t." Now I just need to be brave enough to share it next session.

I talked to my T on the phone yesterday about signing some releases for him to talk to our marriage therapist. While I was on the phone, I told him to make me talk about a certain situation with my husband and a dream I had that feels related to it. I'm not sure how it happened that those words came out of my mouth. It is really yucky, horrible stuff that I didn't want to talk about and it had nothing to do with the topic of releases. My appointment is a 12 today and feeling queasy about it.

MKAC-I'm sorry it feels so yucky. I'll pocket ride if you want.

I'll come too, MKAC, if you want .....