Catch

So after a few months of me avoiding a big topic, T tried a new approach to it. She pulled out two bean balls, once she saw my face of she put one back. The idea was that we were to toss the ball while I said whatever I could on the topic. I was able to give her the date and some things that were happening around the time. I was able to give her a sentence really close to what happened. I kept checking the time because I wanted to run away. Her idea was working, I was somehow talking - normally I just wall up and shut down. I guess I was so focused on catching the ball it helped me not be so focused on my head.

Last night after T was hard. I almost puked walking to my car and then got stuck with the hiccups for a while. I had a hard time getting to sleep and when I did it was on and off. Today I feel really fidgety, dizzy and detached from myself. I skipped yoga because I slept in. I can't seem to slow down but I also can't seem to move if that makes any sense.

I want to tell T that the ball toss idea worked, that it was good but I'm also so scared to. I mean, I'm a mess already and I didn't even really get into any details.

Anyone else try this tossing idea? Anyone have any idea of a way to tell T that it was a good idea?

The t I have seen would probably ask me what I thought about the ball thing at the next appointment. Or if she did not, I might mention it. Either way I would say something like "that ball tossing thing was not the worst suggestion you have made." or "the ball tossing did not completey fail."
I don't like to overstate the situation.

yes my T and i have done that a lot in the past it hadnt helped with me talking but it did help me loosen up an be able to move a little and to connect some with the world in her offfice.i liked passing the ball back and forth

You could kind of make a joke about it and say that it must have worked because you felt so crappy after session. Better than feeling numb, right?? You're doing the hard work right now, so give yourself a break. No one ever said it would be easy

Sounds like some good work was done. Way to go!

[quote=Silent_tsol;2348885]I can't seem to slow down but I also can't seem to move if that makes any sense. /quote]

I know EXACTLY what you mean about that!

I love the idea of tossing a ball around! That would be a great help to me...or anything that involved doing something besides the stare-down waiting for me to respond back. Good for you!

I think I could handle this one

I want easy.

Good for you! Even a tiny bit of talking about the hard stuff is progress.

I definitely think you should tell T that it was a good idea and helped. They won't know what is or isn't working unless you say so. I give my T feedback all the time...either right there in session (I'll flat out tell her "this isn't helping" or "thank you, that was helpful"), or in an email after the fact (I tend to give details about what worked and what didn't) or in the next session.

T and I have never tossed balls, but I do find that doing something with my hands makes it easier for me to talk. When I'm really stuck, T will ask me for "one true thing" and we build up from there.

If your T allows emails, you could just email and tell T "thank you, tossing the ball was very helpful." If t doesn't allow emails, you could say the same thing at the start of the next session. You don't have to go in to a lot of detail...a thanks is enough.

I agree with Rhi.

Yep! Sometimes, I play with the zippers in my backpack and it's been useful.

I hear you.

The ball idea sounds great. I may ask my T to try that one with me.

I like this idea! I was wondering if playing with some balls now would help you with how you feel after the session?