Sorry about the weird title but that's what's been on my mind all evening. Saw t today and we had a really good session, I had done a lot of work since last time and had a lot of stuff written down to talk about. One of the things was a dream I had part of which, I dreamed that my husband bought a new car and I was really mad at him because I didn't want any new debt and I told him to take it back and get out of it and he refused. There were like 3 other scenes in it too like a road to my parent's house disappearing and discovering a cave or something underneath a yard, all kinds of weird stuff, but when we put it all together and were translating the dream symbolism my t came up with this: we don't know what it is yet, but there's going to be a price I have to pay.... I didn't really absorb what she'd said at first, it hit me later, but I have this feeling that she's right about that. I don't know, and excuse the rambling, but I think maybe because of the changes that are happening inside me during this process? or is it because of things that I am learning about myself? She's lucky she didn't give me email access to her cuz she'd have received one tonite with a ton of question marks in it. I'm just really really wondering now what she meant by that. I think perhaps - it might relate to my FOO I live pretty far away from them so don't see any of them but a couple times a year if that. So they aren't experiencing the changes in me as they come they're gonna get 'em in one big ol' lump. I don't know. Thinking with my fingers here I guess. I guess I already know what I want to talk about next time. The price, and what if I decide it's not worth it? At the moment, as I am typing this, I feel like it's worth it no matter the cost because I KNOW I am healing and growing, and becoming the me I was meant to be all along. But wow. What could she mean?

Thanks for putting up with my rambling!!

[elliemay]

Originally Posted by artemis-within

Sorry about the weird title but that's what's been on my mind all evening. Saw t today and we had a really good session, I had done a lot of work since last time and had a lot of stuff written down to talk about. One of the things was a dream I had part of which, I dreamed that my husband bought a new car and I was really mad at him because I didn't want any new debt and I told him to take it back and get out of it and he refused. There were like 3 other scenes in it too like a road to my parent's house disappearing and discovering a cave or something underneath a yard, all kinds of weird stuff, but when we put it all together and were translating the dream symbolism my t came up with this: we don't know what it is yet, but there's going to be a price I have to pay.... I didn't really absorb what she'd said at first, it hit me later, but I have this feeling that she's right about that. I don't know, and excuse the rambling, but I think maybe because of the changes that are happening inside me during this process? or is it because of things that I am learning about myself? She's lucky she didn't give me email access to her cuz she'd have received one tonite with a ton of question marks in it. I'm just really really wondering now what she meant by that. I think perhaps - it might relate to my FOO I live pretty far away from them so don't see any of them but a couple times a year if that. So they aren't experiencing the changes in me as they come they're gonna get 'em in one big ol' lump. I don't know. Thinking with my fingers here I guess. I guess I already know what I want to talk about next time. The price, and what if I decide it's not worth it? At the moment, as I am typing this, I feel like it's worth it no matter the cost because I KNOW I am healing and growing, and becoming the me I was meant to be all along. But wow. What could she mean?

Thanks for putting up with my rambling!!

Dreams, I think can be quite literal OR symbolic, sometime even literal AND symbolic. The price referred too might be the actual money you pay for therapy and the resentment toward that. You *were*mad at your husband for buying that car....

If not, Perhaps she was referring to not a price to be paid maybe, but rather an exchange?

Couldn't even begin to interpret that remark. Hopefully it's not too long before you can find out.

[sconnie892]

Could your t possibly be referring to the adjustments that not only you, but those you have relationships with, make due to your progress in therapy?

I have never told my immediately family I am in therapy, because I know the "price" I would pay for telling them is a lot of continual questioning of why and what's "wrong" with me and a never ending string of "are you okay today?". I am an introverted, private person and I am not willing to pay that price yet.

[Perna]

Yes, I think you first have to get clear about the subject before you can speculate about price.

I like your dream; for me, cars generally symbolize how we are in the world how we conduct ourselves; I'm glad your husband would not take the car back :-) To me it sounds like he either is sticking with himself and his car or that he's not going to leave you. It does sound like you were worried about debt though.

It might just be that you have not quite separated money and yourself. Concentrating on money instead of or at the cost of relationships is not a good idea to me. If you and your husband have been arguing about money and how to spend it instead of focusing on your relationship and what you both really desire and how to get it and working together, the price could be the relationship.

[WikidPissah]

maybe the price you pay is giving up poor coping mechanisms and bad habits?

Wow you guys what awesome insights!! If you all don't mind I want to print these out & take them with me to therapy next week. This has given me a lot to think about and work with. Thanks so much!