[delicatefade26]

I haven't emailed T at all this week...but tonigt I want to sooo bad...he is probably asleep anyway-but the compulsion and desire is so tough...I see him tomorrow at 5-sooo close yet so far. But when I feel like this tonight-I wonder what the point in me not reaching out at all is...I know it shouldn't be just for attention-but isn't it ok for connection? I just need to figure out how to say I need that instead of introducing "drama"...I don't know anymore : ( I want my T

I used to e-mail my T and just say "Hi, I need to connect, are you there?". It was okay with him, and it helped me to be able to reach out without having to have a "reason". Wanting to connect was reason enough.

For me, reaching out this late on a Sunday would probably create stress, though, because he'd probably be off the computer for the day, and I wouldn't get a response and end up wishing I hadn't reached out. But I REALLY get how hard it is to wait when the desire to reach out is so strong.

Would it help to read an old e-mail from him? That used to help me sometimes.

I'm glad you reached out here

[delicatefade26]

Yea by this point I know he is asleep...so it would be pointless to email-so I'm going to hold out until I see him tomorrow-and talk to him about this week and while it was great I didnt email stuff just to get his attention-it was very difficult not having the connection-so I'm learning I can just say my needs-no need to add anything...
The thing that got me through this week was remembering his hug and him telling me to hang onto it-it really helped! I'm going to read some emails and finish up my artwork to show him tomorrow!! Thanks nightsky

[Krose]

I hope you find relief from one of the suggestions above.

My t and I text and I have found it helpful to look back at those to help me make it through those challenging times. When I am struggling, I find that I also have a dialogue in my head and replay conversations that I have had with my t to work through things. Journaling has also been very beneficial when I need to get it out.

I also find distracting myself by doing something I enjoy sometimes help get the worry off my mind.

Hang in there. Monday is just around the corner.