Going forward (update)

I seem to have entered a new phase in my therapy with my T after our little 'rupture'... We've had some frank and open discussions, some rather more direct questions and answers, and I think our therapeutic alliance is stronger than ever

I somehow managed to get all the maternal transference type stuff 'out there'... so now there is literally nothing I haven't told my T! (That I can think of, anyway!)

Had two sessions this week, during one of which we went for a walk for the first time. It was nice to be with T outside of our usual space, and I think it did help me be less anxious... she said she wanted me to try and be more 'in the moment', notice things around me.

I finally managed to ask for - and get - something I've wanted for quite a while but was determined I wouldn't ask for because I was afraid she'd say no... a hug!

I've left my copy of the Emotionally Absent Mother with T for her to look through, and she's given me a bit of homework based on it... I think this is going to be important stuff to work through, I'm glad I braved up and took it in...

Although my mood seems to be going through a bit of a dip lately and my anxiety seems to have increased, my therapy seems to be on the right track, and I left my session yesterday feeling good. I just wanted to share

Good work!

That's awesome!!! SO glad that you worked through some thing with T and asked for what you needed!

Good work, JSG. I'm working through the book and it's actually causing issues with T right now. Serious maternal transference; mostly in the negative. I plan to talk to her about it today. I summarized the chapter on psychotherapy for her because I bought it as an iBook and you can't copy an image on an iPad screen (I tried ) to take to her today. We really need to discuss this. You're giving me the courage to do so!

Hope it goes well, Chopin, I'll be interested to hear

i'm glad to hear it!

That sounds so wonderful!

Yay! Go you and T

We should definitely have an EMA thread in the bookclub section...

WEll done JSG, its so good to hear you repaired your rupture.

Awesome session! Sounds like you have a really great T!! And thank you for the book recommendation btw. I need that book!!!

I'm SOOO happy for you! It sounds like you are making progress

So glad to hear this! Knew you could do it.

...and brave enough to ask for a hug! I'm not sure I'll ever manage that. I tell myself it's been over three years, so it will probably never happen. All that T has seen of me, but I'm not brave enough to ask, especially after all this time (so built up)! Maybe one day. You were so brave though!