things i said i want to take back

Granite, she's going to use the information to figure out a way to help you so that you don't feel awful like you do right now. That's all. She won't hurt you.

She probably will file it in the back of her mind, and remember it when you speak of your mother. T's hear all kinds of stuff, and she isn't gonna judge you. It will probably just help her to understand a little bit more.

i just dont want all this stuff going on in my head all the time it sucks.

The more you talk about it with your T, the less it will be going around in your head. You have no reason to be ashamed at all. Your T just wants to help you.

Granite...whats done is done. She doesn't really know a whole bunch of anything right? But you and I both know she knew and still knows there is more. Your T and you are great together. No need to cause unnecessary anguish over it, she still cares for you as do we all. It was a good thing honey, I promise.

this is true i think .it wasn't a lot and she seems to get more then i tell her like commenting on the lock and bathroom. it is like she instinctively knew some of the issues around what i said.i really helps believe it or not to hear it in a it's no big deal kind of way lola . i need to look at this realistically and not turn it into a huge catastrophe.