[kimmydawn]

I'm letting go of, and losing, so much...

In four weeks I will have my last appointment with my therapist, confidant, mentor, and friend. He is moving to another state to have some pretty cool new adventures in life. I'm happy for him.

I'm sad for me right now. It will be a HUGE change. Not only will I no longer see him, I will be ending therapy altogether. This is something I'm ready to do, and want to do. It doesn't mean it's not mind-boggling, and even a bit frightening, though.

I've achieved the healing I've sought, and will be laying down so much. When we have our last visit, it will be the end of so much more than therapy.

I will be "laying down" my past, grabbing hold of my present, and reaching for my future. I'm not even close to the same person that walked into his door. I have found an understanding in myself that I never dreamt I'd find. I have found an existence that resembles "healthy". The fear that could paralyze me is literally no more. I achieved more than was in my comprehension as possible.

Even though I'm so grateful for the healing and successes in therapy, I'm incredibly sad to see it end.

More than anything, though, I feel such a blessing that he's been in my life. My time there literally saved my quality of life. HE literally saved my quality of life.

Whenever the questions comes to any of our minds, "Are there really good t's out there?" or "Does healing ever come?" I can answer that with one word...YES.

KD

[lenjan]

What you said -- but applied to *my* T, whom I also lost recently because of out of state moves on both our parts.

I found out he was leaving on a Friday, and cried the entire weekend following. But by the time our last meeting came up, we had worked it out bit by bit so that it wasn't so horrible. We reminisced and joked around for 45 minutes, had a good hug and a few tears, and wished each other well, and there it was.

I quit therapy too, and it's not so bad!

Sorry, didn't mean to hijack your thread, just wanted you to know I know exactly what you're going through. PM if you need me.

Love, Candy

[ErinBear]

Hi KimmyDawn,

I'm thinking of you so much as you make this big change. I know what it is like to feel grateful to someone, wish them the best, and still feel concerned about the changes ahead! I'm thinking of you so much. Please take gentle care of you...I'm thinking of you.

Hugs,
ErinBear

[kimmydawn]

((((((((((((((candy)))))))))))))))))

thank you so much for sharing and reminding me that you're just before me. i don't feel so alone.

much love!

kd

It's a big deal, ending with someone you have shared deeply with. I've had similar things (but in my case knew I was not at the end of my journey). I know you will get through this.
Hugs

(((((((((((Kimmydawn))))))))))))))

Yes changes are scarey. No matter what the change is in and around me I find that it amazes me but yet terrifies me. I have been in and out of therapy at least 5-10 times and leaving therapy even after I have accomplished what I set out to do when I started with that therapist leaves me with fear but yet butterflies of excitement of knowing that I was ready and able to take on that new road of taking care of myself with all the new coping tools I had learned along the way.

I am so happy for you and though the road ahead is filled with the unknown, there is so much excitement and joy waiting for you too, to experience in ways you have never been able to before.

Hang in there my friend Change is scarey but so wonderful sometimes.

[pegasus]

(((((((((((((( kimmydawn ))))))))))))))

It is so good to hear from someone at the end of the therapy-road, that true healing is really possible.

I guess that....the sadness you feel in losing your therapist is normal and you need to allow yourself to grieve but also know that this is not the end.

I hope that you will be able to stay in contact with him as a friend.

Much love to you.

[January]

Oh Kimmy!

((((((((((((((( Kimmy )))))))))))))))

I have no words...

Hugs,

Jan

[Fuzzybear]

[allthegirls6]

I know its the saddest time for you kimmy. Hope you can stay strong

Audrey

[ErinBear]

I am thinking of you, still, and wanted to send some more hugs your way, KimmyDawn. Just wanted to say you are still in my thoughts.

Hugs,
ErinBear

[kimmydawn]

Thank you so much ((((((((((((((((((everyone)))))))))))))))))))

ErinBear, you're in my constant thought as well. At least we're not going this alone, yes?

KD

[ErinBear]

Yes (((((KimmyDawn))))) support is a good thing

hugs,
ErinBear