[OliversTwisted94]

What can I do? I have been diagnosed with depression and PTSD; but, for various reasons, I don't believe that this is an accurate diagnosis. The problem is, my therapist consistently treats me like a "cookie cutter" example of someone in a deep depression. Right now, I am in a very, very dark place and am.... well, just really messed up. The problem is that it's not just that I feel "depressed", "sad" or "hopeless"; While I do feel those things, there is this really confusing jumble in my head; my thoughts are so disorganized. I think about things, and can hear things, but I cannot comprehend things. But she still uses those idiotic expressions like "Feeling like you're in a deep, dark hole" and "having clouded judgement". But I know it's much more complicated than that; I just can't find a way to relay what's going on to her. And when she continues to use those common phrases and descriptions, it just really pisses me off to a point where I check out and stop communicating with her. I mean, I can't stand to listen to those stereotypical descriptions of hers! It drives me even further away from her, and makes me feel even more distressed. I feel like now, I am really truly alone here. I just don't like her right now
What can I do to fix this? How can I explain this to her without her telling me that it's "just depression"?

[WePow]

So sorry you are in such a bad spot right now! My T usually asks me what in "underneath" the sorrow. I would encourage you to be very honest with T the next time and say what you did in the post. Maybe T needs to be prodded a bit to see she needs to be more active with you.

[CantExplain]

((Rose))

My problem is the opposite. I wish T would give me a proper diagnosis and a rational course of treatment. But she keeps insisting that I am more complicated than that.

[autotelica]

One of the most poignant moments in my therapy was when my therapist acknowledged that my depression is atypical and that the common analogies that people use do not apply to me. The "everything is gray" thing doesn't resonate with me. Nor does "walking around with bricks on my shoulders". So she no longer speaks in cliches when trying to help me see that I'm depressed (which I am not always aware of).

Maybe coming up with your own metaphors will help?

Also, it sounds like you may be experiencing stuff BESIDES depression. I have repetitive and disorganized thoughts as well. They seem to be independent of my mood. I'm currently not medicating these symptoms, but I have taken stuff in the past that kinda-sorta helped.

[mixedup_emotions]

It seems clear that you need to talk to your T and tell her what you posted here. Being honest with your T about what you're feeling - whether it's about her, or the diagnosis - is important. I'd imagine it would be a worthwhile conversation to have.

[wotchermuggle]

I'd just try to explain how it isn't "just depression" and explain why isn't not just THAT.