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Old Oct 17, 2012, 09:16 AM
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next week im going to a trauma intensive for 5 days. im so nervous! it will be myself, and 1 or 2 other people plus my T and one other T that I have never met. i dont even know what to expect. i stay there all day and all night with just these people ive never met and my T. and im going to have to talk about my feelings ALL FREAKING DAY! i dont know what it will be like to be around T 24/7 like that. will she be different? will i be different? will i get even more attached and be spent into a tailspin after the 5 days are over?

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Old Oct 17, 2012, 09:37 AM
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next week im going to a trauma intensive for 5 days. im so nervous! it will be myself, and 1 or 2 other people plus my T and one other T that I have never met. i dont even know what to expect. i stay there all day and all night with just these people ive never met and my T. and im going to have to talk about my feelings ALL FREAKING DAY! i dont know what it will be like to be around T 24/7 like that. will she be different? will i be different? will i get even more attached and be spent into a tailspin after the 5 days are over?

oh boy......
This is a great opportunity to get grounded and feel safe.... role with the punches, be open and honest. If you trust T I am sure you will be just fine. Wishing you well.
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Old Oct 17, 2012, 09:50 AM
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Wow, good luck. Let us know how it goes?
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Old Oct 17, 2012, 09:52 AM
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wow sounds hard but a great opertunity to be able to be open and safe
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Old Oct 17, 2012, 10:08 AM
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i will definitely let you guys know how it goes. terrified im going to lose it and cry. i never cry in front of people. im really hoping little struggling comes out a little bit. she needs some help.
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Old Oct 17, 2012, 10:12 AM
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i will definitely let you guys know how it goes. terrified im going to lose it and cry. i never cry in front of people. im really hoping little struggling comes out a little bit. she needs some help.
I think this is the perfect opportunity for little struggles to come out...I cant get little lola to show up for session.
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Old Oct 17, 2012, 10:13 AM
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I hope this will be a great time for healing and a place you will feel safe.I understand you are scared, know we are here for you! ((((((((((((((Hugs))))))))))
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Old Oct 17, 2012, 10:16 AM
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Totally awesome opportunity. (I'm completely jealous!) I know you're worried about it, but it'll be so worth it if you can be as present and open as possible.

Wishing you the best, and can't wait to hear about the results.
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Old Oct 17, 2012, 10:35 AM
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like you lola, i cant get little struggles to show up in session. i think she knows its too short an amount of time and then we're back out in the real world.
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Old Oct 17, 2012, 10:43 AM
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like you lola, i cant get little struggles to show up in session. i think she knows its too short an amount of time and then we're back out in the real world.
That's why I'm a little jealous...this is the perfect time to let her out and not worry about having to shove her back in right away. For me , I think I'm afraid of her being let loose.... like the Kraken.
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Old Oct 17, 2012, 10:51 AM
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oh i agree! im thinking "whats going to happen if she comes out? will i become this crazy needy whiny 5yr old in a 30yr olds body? T will be so annoyed with me then!"
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Old Oct 17, 2012, 10:55 AM
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oh i agree! im thinking "whats going to happen if she comes out? will i become this crazy needy whiny 5yr old in a 30yr olds body? T will be so annoyed with me then!"
Have you discussed this fear with T? I did and he said I have to trust him to contain her. I just laughed ... thinking ( good luck with that).
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Old Oct 17, 2012, 11:08 AM
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we've talked a bit about "little struggles" and shes said..."well we're going to grow you up 25yrs"....and she knows im scared of being needy and having needs and being attached....i always wonder what that means when they says "contain"....what do they do? what does that mean? cause i think once i let all my s**t fly there will be no containing whatsoever! big struggling will go off the deep end for sure!!
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Old Oct 17, 2012, 11:12 AM
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i always wonder what that means when they says "contain"....what do they do? what does that mean? cause i think once i let all my s**t fly there will be no containing whatsoever! big struggling will go off the deep end for sure!!

I wish I knew the answer to this, If I ever get the little kid to come out ...Ill let you know how he contained her, but the fear seems to overwhelming to do that. I wonder if anyone else knows the answer? You may after this week and if you do , please share with the group.
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Old Oct 17, 2012, 11:16 AM
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you got it!
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Old Oct 17, 2012, 03:41 PM
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Hi Struggling,
This intensive sounds, well intense! I would be totally nervous too, but I really hope it goes well! I'll be thinking of you. Can't wait to hear about it when you get back.
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Old Oct 17, 2012, 11:19 PM
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I hope it goes well. I have done a 6 day trauma intensive once and it was tough but soooo helpful.

and i just got back today from doing 24/7 stuff with my T for 10 days or so-- we were together all day, every day-- and it was extremely healing. I got to see even more of my T's "human-ness" (even though I already had a really good idea of that)-- and she saw me and my best and worst. T learned all sorts of new things about me and i about her, and we learned even better how to work with each other, how to talk in an even deeper/ more intense way to get more out of things (and of course, sometimes we just ate pizza or goofed around, but probably 70% of the trip was trauma work). It was hard but so helpful. I hope you will find your week the same.
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Old Oct 18, 2012, 09:51 AM
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I hope it goes well. I have done a 6 day trauma intensive once and it was tough but soooo helpful.

and i just got back today from doing 24/7 stuff with my T for 10 days or so-- we were together all day, every day-- and it was extremely healing. I got to see even more of my T's "human-ness" (even though I already had a really good idea of that)-- and she saw me and my best and worst. T learned all sorts of new things about me and i about her, and we learned even better how to work with each other, how to talk in an even deeper/ more intense way to get more out of things (and of course, sometimes we just ate pizza or goofed around, but probably 70% of the trip was trauma work). It was hard but so helpful. I hope you will find your week the same.
thanks sarah michelle/starry night ive followed your thread about your trip and it sounds amazing. so happy for you that you got to do that. although i know i need to talk about trauma and issues...im also deep down secretly hoping for some normal or typical day-to-day experiences with T.......just because so much of my childhood experience with my mom was not normal and i think it would be so healing to have those experiences and be able to hang onto them instead of my memories being harsh.
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Old Oct 18, 2012, 12:09 PM
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Hi Struggling, this sounds like a fabulous opportunity! I would be super nervous about it too but would def like to try it. I hope it's helpful for you x
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Old Oct 18, 2012, 01:56 PM
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Good luck! you will do great... I think it will be a very great learning experience...
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Old Oct 18, 2012, 02:41 PM
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Hey struggles. I did intensive in home T for 6 mo. It was after work. 3 hours each evening 3 evenings a week. After work that didn't leave much free time. But it was amazing. The pace was crazy. The freaked out feeling never went away while she was here. But that was part of the process. To be so freaked I needed her and she got to see everything unfold before her eyes. It had it's fun days but mostly alot of work. I covered what would have taken years in 6 mo. I'll never regret it. Just go with it.
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Old Oct 18, 2012, 03:18 PM
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thanks sarah michelle/starry night ive followed your thread about your trip and it sounds amazing. so happy for you that you got to do that. although i know i need to talk about trauma and issues...im also deep down secretly hoping for some normal or typical day-to-day experiences with T.......just because so much of my childhood experience with my mom was not normal and i think it would be so healing to have those experiences and be able to hang onto them instead of my memories being harsh.

That was a lot of what made my trip so helpful and healing. T and i just did every day stuff, things sisters or a mom and dauter would do together like shopping and painting our nails and watering flowers. It was so healing because i got to have a bunch of stuff that i didnt ever get before. Like her saying such positive stuff to me and all the actual attention i got. I am not used to it and it felt good. All those corrective emotional experienes! I really really really hope that you can have some of those things. I truly hope this experience is very healing for you.
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Old Oct 27, 2012, 11:36 AM
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Hey Struggling2,
I read this post back when you first posted it and I've been thinking about you this week and hoping the intensive is really beneficial for you! I don't know if I've already missed a post somewhere but I hope it's been okay. If you feel up to it, it'd be nice to hear whether something like this was actually beneficial and helpful!
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Old Oct 27, 2012, 03:55 PM
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Hi silver glitter! I just got home yesterday. wow, it was an intense week. I'm not home at the moment but when I get home I will make a new post about my week
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