Welcome to couch number 23!

I hope you have a really good session, Lola

i forgot my T had on black chino style pants and was dressed in all black

Howdy on the couch

Have a good appointment Lola.

I've also found that the put one foot in front of the other and do something for 5 minutes is the only way I can function some days, and other days I just say F*** it and stay in bed. I don't recommend that as a long term strategy though lol

Yesterday, T was wearing tan dress slacks. She looked like she blended into the woodwork completely...tan shoes, tan socks, tan pants, tan shirt, tan sweater, Caucasian skin, and blonde hair. She could've been a cat burglar in the desert or on the beach.

I think T was wearing blue jeans yesterday.

I didn't see T this week-but I could guess either skinny jeans with a tunic and Uggs or a skirt with tights and Uggs or a pair of really high platform shoes.

Thanks Apt,MCAK, Chopin, CE, Lola and Sila- ( your qoute was just what I needed I hope you will be okey to)

At least I am sort of clean now I always crash this time of year...ABSOLUTELY hate it. I wonder why it always comes as such a surprice. Need meds I think.

Hope you guys and everyone else are doing okey on the couch and elsewhere. Have a great evening ALL. I am ...uhm well in bed trying to get some sleep.

Just got back from seeing my T, first time in six months. He had on khaki pants, blue oxford cloth button down with a purple tie. We shook hands before and after and he gave me a pat on the back. Pretty uneventful session.

Darkness? I know it hits me harder for every year. Sleep well.

Yes darkness for sure ..and life/me in general..Sigh. Sleep well you too.

....Several T's from my T's office will be going to my show next Friday...YIKES!!

The one T that was a co-facilitator of my group suggested that I wear my sparkly stuff (my handmade jewelry).

I responded to her saying - YIKES! I'm going to be "seen"? I guess that means I have to wear clothes...and my sparkly stuff. I may need to picture everyone in the audience in their underwear in order to get thru it.

She responded that maybe they should all go in their underwear. They would do that for me.



I then responded to a different email from my T....and mentioned that this co-T said they would all come to my show in their underwear. Make sure they're clean. 8-)

BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!

Sitting in the waiting room waiting for t.... Good thing, feeling so blah, down, and hating myself. Aren't my meds supposed stop this roller coaster?

It will be good MUE!!!

why am i crying grrrrr stupid no reason just crying

i wish i could see your show

Aww, thanks, Granite...

Sorry you're feeling so down....((( HUGS )))

I think my t would be proud of me today. I listened to her advice and started up a new puzzle (since it helps me physically relax and not be soo fidgety/uptight), and in the process I got to do an activity with my mom that we could actually agree on! That never happens, so I'm kinda happy.

ill be ok i'm going out with hubby tonight lots of vodka and nachos good times

thats awsome

MUE, I wish I could see your show too!
granite, sorry you're down. You ARE doing fine in t. Don't worry!! Have fun with your H. He's a great guy!!
I haven't posted here much so I don't know what's going on with everyone but want to wish you all a peaceful week-end!!

Thanks, Rainbow!!

i don't think i want to go out this is why i am so emotional but it's all so good for me right .to get out fake having fun and come home tired and overwelmed but hey you know hiding in your craft room staying calm not letting the world get to me now that is somehow bad right

It may feel fake at the moment....but you might end up feeling a little less burdened when you return. I find that even when it feels fake, it does provide a sense of change for at least a little while, which has an impact on how I feel.

I do hate the feeling that I get when the realization of what I temporarily escaped from returns....but even then, I do know that it would've been worse had I not distracted from it at least a little bit.

MUE- Id love to see you too...maybe you can record it and make it available to couchketers on Youtube.... rate R for underwear audience..LOL

MKAC, Sconnie, SD, Wiki, Sally, CE I miss you....

Murray - thanks, I agree **** it is NOT a long term solution

Chopin - glad you didn't get in trouble and Sand Camo T is hilarious

Lonley/APT - I am so sad for you both and Im sending good energy your way.... and a handful of Happy pills....

Ike- ok appointments are better then bad ones .... maybe this is a lurker and you will have an AHA moment later

Sila - glad you and your mom found something in common to bond over.

Granite- You did some amazing work in T latley, like you are the bravest person ever.... you win the Academy Award for honesty, trust and courage... so enjoy an after party. Its out there, and she saw it and the world is still revolving.... dont seclude your self and self punish.... go to the Academy after party with your friends and loved ones, see that its all ok, Girl you deserve a break today! ( now where the hell did I put that GIANT twix...lol )

Jersey thanks for the question, glad your ok ....speaking of a s s have you froze yours off yet?

My T in a skirt would be one ugly woman!

He had on cowboy boots, a shirt and tie of some type....can't remember as his WKRP jacket is hella distracting....LOL and jeans.... my leaving comment was..... " those jeans are looking kinda big in the butt department" LOL"

It was a really good session, we reconnected.... he admitted that when I cancelled on Tuesday he felt disposable, as I cancelled nonchalantly... ( I think he got his feelers hurt)
He said little me can be mean sometimes.... but he wasn't mad as he knows its little me and she kind of a beotch sometimes ( my take..she doesn't stroke his ego...lol) Then talked a bit about relationship issues and told him about this crazy dream I had last night , I recorded the details first thing in the morning. It was awesome, I love the "what does this dream mean" game..... It was an eye opener, apparently I am trying to tell ME something in my sleep and apparently I'm not listening...LOL

Can I get a Woot Woot for Friday?

lol i love twix