[Miswimmy1]

I am so nervous... I dont know how to act. Its my last meeting with my t until she comes back on the 15th. The real me just wants to collapse on her couch and cry in fear about what the next 3 weeks are going to bring. I feel so alone and so much like how it was before I found t (in this all by myself, confused). But I can't do that. its her birthday today. I want her to have a good day. I want her to rest easy, and go into surgery knowing that I will be ok, so that she can focus on herself. I hav created this facade the last couple days of false self confidence. I can't fall apart now. I just am so confused. And I dread our last meeting. I wish I could tell her how I really feel, but I can't ruin her day. Im in such a position... :/

[mixedup_emotions]

((((Miswimmy1)))

It's ok to let your T know what you're really feeling. It's important for you to do that. Let her know how conflicted you feel - about not seeing her for 3 weeks AND about how you want her to enjoy her birthday.

The next 3 weeks are going to be difficult. Please don't add to your burden by holding back in T. That will do more harm than good.

[taylor43]

Please do not hol back, i know you want to. Hun it's ok to fall apart it has not been easy for you and with her gone it is going to be tough. You will make her day by being totally honest with her. I will be right in your pocket. Also know we here at pc are here for you. I cant stress the more honest you are the better help she can give you. She cant help you if you are not honest. ((((((((((((((Hugs))))))))))

[Bill3]

((((((((Miswimmy1))))))))

[Wren_]

i hope you were (or are?) able to tell her what is going on for you; she is still your T and that the two of you manage to have a good session - until the next one!

[~EnlightenMe~]