Couch number 33!!!!!

Therefore a very good food if you're a diabetic!

most definately

Don't get me wrong. I've had relationships that didn't work and I did walk away.

What kept me coming back to my T was an intestinal certainty that she was my last chance, the only person who could help me.

you know what? I bet vodka is also fat free! What do you bet?

I am not sure that I am happy weepy. I am OMG, I miss my dad and father in law and no one will ever really love me weepy, I think. That weepy where you think your husband is only in it for the play dates kind of thing. Intellectually, I'm pretty sure that's not true, but it FEELS true. LOL. He is insanely good at play dates though.

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i wonder if the whip cream vodka is sugar and fat free. best drink ever whip vodka and diet coke

whipped cream vodka with chocolate milk. Not sugar free then, though.

I can't give up on mine because she was someone I liked immediately, much more than I ever feel about anyone else straight away like that. It was during the worst period of my life when I had no hope, hadn't thought a single positive thing in 6 months, and didn't understand therapy or therapists at all...so that fact that I thought that about her was incredible. I really, really like her. I like who she is. She's just one of those people who didn't need to tell me anything. I just felt like I knew her and like she was always supposed to be the one. It was a bit like she was never a stranger to me. I don't feel like that about anyone. I had one horse in my life who was perfect. Couldn't be replaced by anything else and did more for me than any person once had. My therapist too is the right one. She cannot be replaced and it isn't supposed to be anyone other than her. I can't imagine her vanishing from my life...and sometimes the boundaries seem so cruel.

I expect they do.

Being angry doesn't bother me. I've lived there most of my life. I just need to make sure I don't spread it around.

Thanks!

this is true that is why the diet coke makes the top of the list or how about diet crush

Post of the week!

Yup. I totally get this.

One day I realised I would never get through the boundaries. It was unbearable. I cried for a week. But afterwards, I realised that although she wouldn't give me what I wanted, what she would give me was enough. The idea that anything could be enough was completely new to me.

This is exactly how I feel about my T. I have even told her that I knew her before I knew her- KWIM? I also told her I know it sounds weird, but it's true. Thankfully, I think my T believes similarly to what I do and feels the same way. I asked her not to long ago if she would stop seeing me if I ever tried to seriously hurt myself. Much to my surprise she said, "No, not you. I'd continue to see you even if you tried to seriously harm yourself." I was seriously surprised by her answer. I expected the exact opposite of that.

CE - Sorry that you're in an angry mood. I hope you can find some understanding to what's driving that anger, the feelings beneath it, and get to a place of resolve. We're here. (( HUGS ))

Play dates.....been a long time since I've had a play date with someone other than myself.

Looks like it's a true confessions kind of a night!

'Cause we're all besties like that tonight. My excuse is vodka, don't know about everyone else. LOL.

I'm the type that doesn't need alcohol in order to completely humiliate herself....

IMO that would cover a multitude of a H's character flaws ....

I know exactly what you mean Karebear. That's why I just can't lose her over this. My T seldom makes it really clear that I mean much to her compared to what she means to me. I do wonder though if it's happening because she does care a lot. I think now she's withdrawn a bit and being careful with boundaries...and it hurt..along with all the mistakes. She does tell me she cares. Once, just once...she said she thinks she'd stop working if something happened to me.

These days she tells me she's not the only person who could help me. Maybe I should stop seeing her if it's causing me so much pain. Ugh. I know she's not the only one who could help in any way, of course...but I tried to tell her it wasn't about her being the only person who could help, it was about losing her...and I just ended up shaking my head because I could barely say it all out loud.

pear whine for me. the truth serum the great relaxer and the hubby hoping he didn't miss that window of opportunity . you all know what I'm talking about (sorry Hubby)

Me either! It just comes natural to me!!

When I first read your response I thought it said "Cause we're all BEASTIES like that"..... and I was wondering how you knew?

Should I be spiking my coffee with something so I'm not left out? I'm sure it won't harm the work I'm doing on my assignment in any way. I'm so far behind with it that it will probably sound like a drunk person wrote it regardless.

is it a good night for a game of truth or truth ? lets get to know each other. anyone game? ill go first.

Q, funest and most interesting place you had you know ???? mine a cucumber picker (NO LIE)

lol too funny