Today is a really bad day
I have decided to quit therapy for good because all it is doing is pointing out all of the bad things in my life and to be honest I can't F******* cope with them anymore. I am done with it and with ts and with my course and everything and everyone

[Sannah]

button, these feelings will pass.

They keep coming back though and thats the problem. Currently my life revolves around therapy and it is getting me down, I go to work, I go to my course. learning to be a t, then I go to therapy

[stopdog]

I would think part of learning to be a therapist would be dealing with your own issues.

[Sannah]

But you haven't really been able to get to work on these issues yet and this is when things will get easier (maybe not right away but eventually). And if you want to be a T you need to do your own work anyway.

Originally Posted by stopdog

I would think part of learning to be a therapist would be dealing with your own issues.

It is but maybe I have too many issues and I am not able for this right now, thats why I want to run away

[Sannah]

Keep working in therapy and you will get there.

hugs..i feel like you too but i also think i dont have a choice but to go to therapy. however if you feel like you cant take any therapy at the moment you could take a break for a short while and continue with your t (or a new t) afterwards. wishing you the best

[pbutton]

Remember you don't have to do it all at once. Pick one thing to change & work through your issues one at a time. As you start doing the work to make your life better, things will start looking up.

[Sannah]

Does this have anything to do with the new T that heard you? (The other T wasn't hearing you so then your issues can stay in the dark but this T is hearing you so your issues are going to come out).

button, you can do this.... I know how it feels to want to throw up your hands up and run away, but this feeling will pass. Hang in there, give yourself a time out and then hold your head up and start again.

Originally Posted by Sannah

Does this have anything to do with the new T that heard you? (The other T wasn't hearing you so then your issues can stay in the dark but this T is hearing you so your issues are going to come out).

I think so because I knew in my head I never had anyone in my life to love me or support me and when she said it out loud I just wanted to get out of there and she noticed me running away and packing up and asked me to sit down and talk about it but I didn't want to because it hurts so much.

[Sannah]

Originally Posted by button30

I think so because I knew in my head I never had anyone in my life to love me or support me and when she said it out loud I just wanted to get out of there and she noticed me running away and packing up and asked me to sit down and talk about it but I didn't want to because it hurts so much.

So what are you going to do with this now?

I want to hide it again and not KNOW it because I don't think we are meant to know this information as How can it change anything, it only hurts

[Sannah]

Yes, it hurts, but this also needs to be worked through so that you can get to the other side.

Originally Posted by button30

I want to hide it again and not KNOW it because I don't think we are meant to know this information as How can it change anything, it only hurts

Sometimes you can't un ring a bell.

[unaluna]

Therapy isn't for everyone. You certainly have the right to live your life as you want. Without talking it over with someone, with strangers really. When you look at it that way, it's a little weird. You usually have to choose between your current way of doing things, and at least looking at them differently. Making small steps to change things, which turn into bigger steps. And staying where you are while you are in therapy, with no changes, can cause conflict and force you to stay the same to keep the peace. It can be very scary to change. And it can be hard to understand all this. If you're not there, then you're just not there. It's not a race.

Originally Posted by button30

I want to hide it again and not KNOW it because I don't think we are meant to know this information as How can it change anything, it only hurts

Are you seriously in training to become a therapist? With this attitude about therapy? What is the point of becoming a therapist if you are only hurting people by getting them to address their issues? If you're not a sadist, and you actually want to be a therapist, this cannot really be your attitude at the core of things, can it?

Button, you can do this! I hope you don't give up on yourself now, when you're being heard by the new t! I was in a sorta kinda similar place recently when I spent all that time and energy trying to convince my t that I was done and wanted to quit, and she kept talking me out of it.... you know, if I had quit when I (thought I) wanted to, I would not have had the "snowy realization" yesterday evening that I posted about, because I never would have discussed the deepening stuff with t, that deepening itself probably would never have occurred... etc and around it goes. of course it's your life and your decision, but I wanted to add my 2 cents on the side of hoping that you don't throw in the towel. You are so worth the hard work that therapy takes. You can do this!!

[Dreamy01]

Usually those times that we feel like running away and giving up with it all are the very times when stuff is coming up to be processed. Often painful stuff.

It's hard and miserable but it's worth it, it really is. The amount of times I've nearly jacked it all in and been glad I didn't. At the end of the day all we are running from is ourselves...which is of course impossible. Issues will follow us and continue to influence us whether we want them to or not.

You have the courage to do this.

[Sannah]

And we will support you button!

button I am kind of going through the same right now, I have just started with a new T and it is really hard but I want to work on these things even though they are painful.

Originally Posted by Dreamy01

Usually those times that we feel like running away and giving up with it all are the very times when stuff is coming up to be processed. Often painful stuff.

It's hard and miserable but it's worth it, it really is. The amount of times I've nearly jacked it all in and been glad I didn't. At the end of the day all we are running from is ourselves...which is of course impossible. Issues will follow us and continue to influence us whether we want them to or not.

You have the courage to do this.

Reminds me of one of my favorite quotes: "Wherever you go, there you are."

Originally Posted by My kids are cool

Are you seriously in training to become a therapist? With this attitude about therapy? What is the point of becoming a therapist if you are only hurting people by getting them to address their issues? If you're not a sadist, and you actually want to be a therapist, this cannot really be your attitude at the core of things, can it?

Yes I am in training but we need help and support too with our stuff! Why the personal attack I am of the theory if you have nothing kind or supportive don't say anything at all

Originally Posted by button30

Yes I am in training but we need help and support too with our stuff!

My t has a t of her own. That doesn't diminish her work as a t, in fact it makes her a BETTER t, in my opinion! I think EVERY t should be in therapy too - otherwise how they heck do they deal with all the stuff they hear every day? I have nothing but good things to say about a t being in t.