Loordy, Lourdy the COUCH is 40....

My older dog (also a rescue adopted from a high kill shelter) is a Rottweiler - corgi cross. (Picture a Rottweiler with short, stubby legs) She's about two feet tall and weighs 60 pounds. She's not fat at all, just solid muscle. She is the sweetest dog on the planet: dumb as a post but incredibly eager to please and very loving.

If 2 of my dogs had not passed away while I had her, I would not have been able to keep her. Last night My older big boy dog jumped on her at meal time.... he has never done this before, ugggg. She was surprised and actually didn't fight back... he's luck because she is way younger and stronger and could easily kick his butt.

Layoff's at H's job. H made the cut, he didn't even have to take a rate deduction, but son got his hours cut in half. I asked him if he was okay, he said, "yea, I am just so grateful that they are keeping me on. I have enough money saved to get by." No whining from him!

T in two hours. My stomach is in knots from apprehension, yet it also feels like time is moving so slow.

Good luck at T Fix, you will be fine...just relax and don't forget to breathe.

My office is like an Ice box...wth?

Hey I noticed we have a mens and womens focus group area, but is there one specifically for teen? I notice when a young person posts that many more young people come out and show support, people who normally don't post a bunch... I wonder if young adults or teens had their own area if they would talk more?

I am all post therapy anxious. I don't know really why, it is not because of any clash with the therapist, just like a great deal of peril.

You wanna talk about it? I couldn't very well use the Hug or Like buttons and Thanks didn't cut it for me.... we need an "I acknowledge your pain" button.

Thanks. It is not interesting, it is not even really perilous. And yet anxiety is still there.
I may be having a reaction to the fact we have not had sun here in about a week. I could never live in Seattle.

you said Perilous and you in general are interesting.... but if you don't want to share that's ok

stopdog, I had something similar happen this week in both therapy and marriage counseling. I mentioned in another thread that before therapy, my heart was pounding so hard, it was visible, and my hands were shaking. It seemed totally unreasonable and really irritated me. I hope your anxiety subsides quickly.

I know I used the word. It feels perilous. It just is not perilous in reality.

I think I need to go find a group of 5-6 year olds to see how clueless they really are. I have not been around any recently and am having a hard time picturing them. I don't know if I have the correct vision of them or if I have short 12 year olds instead.

My guess is short 12 year olds..... 5 and 6 are still pretty clueless!

Five and six year olds are clueless, as they should be, really. My T has, on several occasions, asked me to seek out kids at various ages just to remind myself how kids are at those ages. I tend to judge my actions as a child from an adult's perspective and always come up short. Reminding myself of just how little different ages are helps me have a tiny bit of empathy for my younger self.

My older sister called last night. She starts ECT today and will remain inpatient for at least another week or two. I'm slightly concerned about how little I care. I mean, I care about her experiences as much as do anyone's, but not as much as I feel I "should" care for a sister. T seems to think that not caring is just fine.

Exactly... I do the same

CL - it is okay not to care like you think you "should", I think. I think there is a lot of propaganda around the notion of family and sibling love that is simply not reality for many if not most. I try not to buy into the fantasy as it makes me feel bad about the reality.

Seeing actual 5 yr olds does not make me have more empathy for me. It horrifies me that I was ever like that and I want to club it out of me even more.
Note: I do not club the small children of others and really only have the urge to club their parents if stuck on airplanes or movie theaters or dining out around them.

Mine were quite bright, but still ridiculously undeveloped and silly and unable to develop plans at that age. For instance, when they were five and three, they decided they wanted to share a room, but for some reason thought I would not allow it. Therefore, they thought it would be better to move my daughter's toddler bed into my son's room without asking. They decided to do this "secretly" and started moving stuff without thinking about the fact that I was in the next room and could see them moving the mattress and frame between one room and the another. That still cracks me up.

Stopdog, I am sure there is not a 5 year old on the planet who could prevent abuse of any kind at that age. Five year olds are just not developed enough to plan or take control.

As an aside, one of the worst episodes that I can remember clearly happened when I was 8. I always thought of myself as basically a small grown up at that age. Watching my kids at that age, and my niece, it staggered me how small kids and intellectually immature even really smart kids are at that age.

It isn't exactly that I wasn't any smarter than I was/am (not especially a bright child and completely clueless as to how to handle them effectively=no social skills) so much as it is just how effing unwilling I seem to have been to do even the tiniest of self-preservational actions. Like it took about a year or more to quit believing them when they said if I just told the truth, they would not be mad. Seriously, they were always mad. What the f was wrong with me.

As children we are naturally naive and we don't understand lying and evil coming from those who are supposed to care for us. SD , your aren't an alien, you are exactly like the rest of us were. Trapped with no life experience about how things should be.

That depresses me more. I am not trying to claim uniqueness here. This is not why I am an alien either. I know I am not unique or special or whatever. I just think that much stupidity in me should be killed.

Sorry.... if it makes you feel better you are way more superior in intellect and emotional self regulation then almost everyone I know....NOW

Checking in for the afternoon... I see t today at 4.

Good luck at T healed, hope you have a good session.