Couch 48 - All are Welcome - really!

Apparently I look better in person too. Something to do with my face structure.

Although I must say , If I want to feel better about myself Ill go to Walmart on a Saturday.....

I guess Im afraid as a newly to be single person... am I going to be able to meet someone?

That was my fear too, when I left my husband. But give yourself time.

thank you for talking with me....

Not a prob.

and the beat goes on.... and the beat goes on........

Man is his own worst enemy.... right? Has someone said that? Surely someone has?

I say it all the time. I really feel sad when I see where humanity is heading. Maybe it will surprise me.

How do you feel about that?

Our civilisation seriously underestimates how sexy a good personality can be.

Maybe you are vivacious! Personality doesn't photograph well.

I think so!

vivacious. I love that word. thanks CE

I wonder... Could it be...

I always leave in anger, 'cos when I'm not angry, I don't leave.

i think that is because you are loveable my friend.

I'm sorry I wasn't online last night to help support those in need.

I am hoping today will be a better day for my PC peeps.

Woke up in intense pain today....and my nerves are shot for a few reasons.

1. I have T today. ACK.

2. I have not been called to work all week so far. I've only worked 1 hour 15 mins. this week...which adds to my fear that this job will not be sustaining enough to provide the income I need in order to keep my home when unemployment runs out in a few weeks.

3. I have a huge amount of bills coming due this week and next week which far exceeds the money I have in my checking account. It wouldn't have been so bad if I received an unemployment payment this week - but I was denied because I worked part time the 2 weeks prior. Problem is, the income I made wasn't as much as unemployment - so it's usually deducted and I get the balance. Not this time. And I don't get paid for the last 2 weeks of work until later in the month. *sigh*

4. I have T. ACK.

Lola: news flash: she's not straight!
I find some women attractive, intelligent butches especially, but wouldn't kiss one. Not sexually attracted to women.

On my way to Boston for an appointment and a visit to southie. On my own today.

You really are wicked wiki.

have a good day wikster

lola i agree with wiki she aint straight. i hope you are ok for your meeting today.i know at this point you are probibly heading that way. good luck..
lola you will get through this .i know it feels like the world as you know it is comming to an end and it is terrifying .but you can do this and be ok in the end .you will survive.

Lola
MUE

Morning everyone on the couch.

Does anyone else have delayed reactions to sessions? This seems to be an issue for me. Even if I take time to journal or process after session.

T and I were talking about medical follow-up tests I am supposed to have in June. I was anxious at the time and I told t. We talked more I felt a little better. But now I am completely triggered. Woke up crying this morning.

Oh yes, Sconnie, definitely! It was so bad at one point that my T suggested that we shorten my session time by 5-10 minutes and have a scheduled follow up call 2 days later for a few minutes - because I was always having triggery reactions after my sessions.

Ultimately, the goal is to be able to feel things in the moment, but I struggle with that.

LC - I think the woman is probably mostly straight but more bi/loosened inhibitions. The whole kinsey scale and how many (perhaps most) are not completely straight or gay.. It is not a serious act with most straight women who do this, in my experience of it.
The Kinsey Institute - Kinsey Sexuality Rating Scale

It might be prudent to reconsider going out drinking with coworkers right now. Maybe dinner or happy hour with a group, but not alone with one and not a lot of drinking.
LC - don't sabotage yourself like this.

What the heck is wrong with me. I cried the whole way to work.

This is somewhat me. I am straight and have no sexual interest in women but I do, at times, like kissing them. It has never been anything more, or meant anything more then just kissing. I have also on several occasions kissed (or have been kissed by) some gay male friends.

Lola - I hope the meeting goes well today, and don't sell yourself short. You are attractive and when you are ready you will find someone else. Just please give yourself time.

Office hag! ARGH!

My friends see how i suffer from not being able to study but they also tell me to not quit. I really am so desperate. I am starting to want to just quit but if my friends wont accept it I can't accept it. Because I am not sure. I wish I was sure of what would be the best approach. I wish some one would tell me.