Couch 51 - They also serve

Is that part of their technique, that the patient is always wrong?

OMG, BPA....That's hilarious!

I told my T that arguing with him is fruitless...that it never gets anyone anywhere. He said that was true.

How would you take this statement?

"By remaining silent for such long periods of time, as was the case these past two weeks, the room drains of energy."

Silence can be full of energy.

All of my Ts have used silence to encourage me to feel my emotions.

Or sitting the corner licking their you know whats. The dogs doing the licking NOT the therapists.

The dog itself was not the problem. The therapist's response to the dog was the problem.

Thanks, CE.

Oh, and just to give a clearer picture, this was part of T's direct response to me in the group notes, commenting on my silence.

So sorry. I would have felt attacked and criticized.

Sorry thats what I was trying to get across, the therapist can't be mindful and give their whole attention to the client if the dog is distracting them, it would be like having a baby/toddler in the room. I'm sure your T would not have a baby/toddler in the room as it is inappropriate and distracting...But from what I am understanding of your T maybe she would....

SD: Tell her she can't have a parakeet either!

Obviously not, as there is no unified "they", so there is no strategy that is "theirs". And many of us have very different experiences. But you know all that.

Round in a cicle
in a spiral
like a wheel within a wheel

Just back from T and the dreaded revelation which got me the talk about "Even if i had sexual/romantic feelings for any one of my clients i couldn't tell them ...blah blah blah" Everyone's heard it all before so i won't go on.

Now I have to think about Plato and spheres cleaved in two, the empty hole inside me and the thing my T has but i don't and sex and how they are connected and what it all means to me. I have 3 weeks to do this via writing, drawing anything.

Good morning...

Murray....I am so sorry. I don't know what else to say.

SD: I could not handle a t interrupting me to care for a dog. Seriously. Grrr. Pisses me off just thinking about it.

So today: wildlife clinic, trip to Boston. Here's hoping they finally take me off these damn steroids I've been on for over a month. I am blowing up like a balloon. Big fat wiki. Sheesh.

Morning couch.

I had the weirdest dreams last night. I don't know why. Maybe I can "blame" the increase in meds. Though that is probably not the case.

Woke up before my alarm this morning. I hate when that happens, but I felt well rested, so maybe my body was telling me it didn't need anymore sleep.

Just chilling right now before heading to C's. I have quite a while to chill as I don't have to leave until about 9:30.

Looks like I missed the talk about T's being distracted by things or not taking notes. My T doesn't take notes, but she seems to remember everything I tell her as she will bring up things that even I don't remember until she reminds me of them.

Well, I'm off to watch some TV for a while and eat some breakfast.

I hope everyone has a good day.

Response:

Hey instead of thinking up clever ways to describe your misery why don't you ENGAGE me then a s s hat!

"when there is silence I get bored and my mind wanders"

me too...ideal time is the devils play toy

Are you home or away? How's things?

HEY LOLA!!! Hows things? back on the road?

I don't think my T realises what he is asking me to do. I bet when he thinks about sex it's all he can think about. Fancy asking me to connect all those things with sex.

Yep. And last night, after I spoke, there was complete silence for a while. Typically, my mind wanders and the negative thoughts and anxiety builds. Yet, last night, that didn't happen. I made a comment that it seemed like progress that I didn't feel that way.

T then also said in his note to me, "You said it is becoming easier to remain quiet which you seemed proud of."

That was taken totally out of context.

I'm home... Been in the garage for like 5 days. Back to Houston on Sunday

MUE tell T to suck it... It is progress and you should be proud...

Thanks, Lola. I thought so too....until another group member ended up lashing out at me...and T said he was pleased that she didn't hold back.

I understand that's her work. But eff that.