Couch 52 - Are you being served?

Good night RTS!

Hey couch peeps....just popping in....had an extremely busy, chaotic day - which was good cuz it kept my mind off of T issues....but it was way too chaotic. Stressful. But I survived! Was in the sun for way too long today, so I'm feeling a bit wiped, especially after such little sleep last night.

Got a call from my manager - and I took on an assignment that requires me to be up at 4 AM. My daughter is now at my mom's - and if I can get to bed in the next hour, I'll have 4 hours of sleep. I hope I can get to sleep quickly. The assignment is until noon - an hour from home, and I see T at 1:30 PM - so I'm really cutting it close.

I hate feeling so stressed when it comes to rushing to be somewhere on time.

Hope to catch up on the couch tomorrow afternoon. Goodnight peeps. Sleep well, my friends.

Hi couch peeps.
Back from the wedding. It was a very nice, small ceremony.
The traffic going through the big city was bad going down and horrible coming back. There is construction and they've taken 8 lanes down to 4 lanes (2 in each direction). 15 mph for about 10 miles.... But I survived I am proud that I did it.

Hugs to everyone who need them right now.

I have t this Thursday and am already wishing my session was two hours instead of one.

ARGH!!!! I woke up out of a dead sleep and realized I forgot to put one of the sponsor logos in our brochure for a work event... and printed 9000 of them last week. They weren't listed last year and I forgot to add them back in this year... totally my fault. Sent an apology email to the company already... but calling them is going to suck.

repeat after me: the world is not going to send, the world is not going to end, the world is not going to end.....

I am going to go hide in bed for another hour or so and think about coping skills t has taught me....

Did you know robin's sing at 4am? I didn't but I do now.... they are signing outside my window.

Morning.

Arg Sconnie! That sux. The world is NOT going to end, and everyone (even you) makes mistakes. Welcome to the human race. Sorry that you have to be one of us.

The sun is shining, cool wind blowing, squirrels are out driving my younger dog bonkers.

I was going to drive into Providence today to see my nephew's new baby...the little 1 pounder I've been raising money for. Not sure if I still am though...thinking about it.

Good morning Wiki...

its raining here...the second time my younger boys' field day will be postponed. I hope tomorrow is nice. School ends on Wednesday.

Why are you hesitating about going to see the baby? Hard to see it so small? Hospital's upsetting? or is it just you aren't feeling your best today?

I didn't sleep well last night...my older son is away and I dreamt about him all night.

Honestly...it's because I don't know the city. I drive into Boston all the time, which is farther away and more confusing, but the thought of Providence scares me a bit because it's unfamiliar. So every time I think of it, my stomach turns. I may end up going, just giving myself an hour or two to decide.

Sconnie, we had something similar happen with a charity event that we were putting on. We ended up getting small stickers of the corporate logo printed and we were able to find a place it on the progam... it didn't look too bad but it did take manual labor to get them finished...

I'm sorry this has happened... do you normally have someone else review the proofs from the printers with you? I always try to have someone else proofread with me because its always possible that one person will miss or see something that the other person will catch...

Mistakes do not undo all the good things that we do right...

Oh I get that... I know most people use GPS's but I still use Google Maps because I like having the directions to read a head of time and I like having the map with me so that I can "see" where I am going....

Another thing to remember is that its probably a big hospital if its got a NICU so there are probably lots of signs for it too especially once you get off the highway.

Do you have anyone who would want to go with you who could be navigator? map reader and sign watcher...

I hope you have a great day Wiki...whatever you choose to do.

Okay....I need to stop spamming the couch now... and get in the shower...

Rainy days and Mondays get me down.

hope your day is chimerical, Ready!

Morning couch.

Well, another pretty good night of sleep. I think my anxiety is finally lower, since I am sleeping better.

Busy day ahead of me. I have the senior place in the morning, then C in the afternoon. About a 9-10 hour day ahead of me. But, I'll survive. Tomorrow will be a long day as well have my training in the morning and then T right after that. Hopefully I wil be able to work though some of the things that happened since last time I saw her. There's a lot...I'm just hoping that we will have enough time to get through it all.

Sconnie, sorry you are feeling like a "failure" right now. It will be okay. People make mistakes.

To everyone who is struggling...I hope today is brighter for you. A new day is like a blank canvas.

Well, I need to go eat breakfast and get dressed and relax a little before heading out the door. I hope everyone has a decent day.

Thanks RTS. The stickers are a good idea. I will see if I can find some small enough to add to the brochures. We would have to sticker about 6500 of them. about 2500 were already mailed. But stickers would be worth it.

Our director normally proofed with me, but since he retired, it was just me this time. I am also going to offer them some extra logo placement on tshirts and in newspaper ads.

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So, I have a question about t reporting requirements...maybe this should be in a different thread... I don't know.
Last week a good friend told me she had been raped two years ago and never reported it. She also is having lots of issues and admitted sui plans. This was really difficult for me to hear the same week another friend died from OD.

This friend obviously needs help and is starting to ask for it. Me and others advised her to talk to someone... but she is hesitating. I sent a vague email to my pastor for advice. But I am wondering if I talk about this with t on Thursday, do I place her in the position of having to report? This friend obviously needs help, but I can also tell she is very vulnerable right now and any inkling that her trust has been betrayed might send her running.

ETA - used the wrong abbreviation when I originally posted... sorry.

If she is an adult, and not in any danger of seriously injuring herself or another, then no, a T wouldn't have to report it. You have control over the matter anyways, just don't use the friend's name. I don't think your T would push it any further though. Usually self injury isn't suicidal.

((sconnie)) - I don't know anything about reporting requirements, but wanted to say that I can empathise. I found, last week, that discussing my closest friend's current personal crisis with my T made it a little easier for me to handle my own emotions around it. I think you owe it to yourself and your friend to try to disentangle your feelings about what's happening to your friend. If your T is anything like mine, she'll turn the subject around to what all this is doing to you, though.

Thanks Wiki. I used the wrong abbreviation. There should have been a u in there... that is why I am concerned about reporting. She is not in immediate danger. I would have forced to her to go to the emergency room in that case.

Thanks Mast. That is a good way of thinking about it.

I meant to go back and edit my post - I shouldn't be saying that you "owe it to your friend" - that sounds like I'm telling you what you ought to do. But I hope you understand what I meant.

oh...wow, that must be very hard for you. Don't take that into your own hands, or be responsible for it. Talk to t, leave the friend's name out if you want, but get some perspective.

I didn't take it that way at all Mast. I really appreciated you saying that t would likely turn it around... which is exactly what I would expect my t to do. That was helpful.

There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming
Confusing
This lack of self-control I fear is never-ending
Controlling
I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
Without a sense of confidence
I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take
I've felt this way before
So insecure

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

Hmmm... some deep lyrics....

fear is how I fall

I like that song Wiki

BTW, I cant drive in Boston...that's for sure. But Providence is pretty difficult too...lacking in good signs and such.

Squirrel - how do you know to sit down and relax before you leave the house? I always look like a maniac leaving my place, in a rush because I'm late. Always. From day one.