Couch 52 - Are you being served?

Hey Where is everyone...

Granite... how are you feeling today?
MKAC...did the package thing work out?
Wiki... how you doin?
everyone busy working?

Thanks for asking, Ready. The same day shipping was several hundred dollars. So, I sent it next day. My daughter is really feeling sick and I am almost wishing I had disregarded her desire to go on her own, but I really want to respect her autonomy and give her the space to try things on her own.

MKAC... I'm sorry she isn't feeling well... maybe it'll be helpful in the end that she will learn how much she can push herself to do and when she needs to rest... try not to worry too much.

My older son is away all week too... I got a text this morning that said I am alive and well. I guess I should be grateful for that.... hoping to hear how he was doing and what he's doing but I guess I will have to wait to hear how Boys State is going till the end.

My son LOVED Boys State and made some really close friends there.

Its funny MKAC... I somehow knew your son would have participated in Boys State. Our boys have a lot in common except your son is a year ahead of mine in school.

Hi Lola... where are you working today?

Ready, if your son is interested in the top rated schools, warn him that they track his interest level in the college by tracking how many times he visits their web sites and how many of the pages on the web site he looks at. We found out AFTER the fact that our son didn't rate well on their 'interest level' rating because he never visited the web sites from our home computers. Our data usage is really limited, so he looked from school or the library. Also, when they tell you it doesn't matter if he does not interview in person, it DOES. They also use that to rate their interest level.

I wrote this on May 31 on Couch 51 about my last session with current T:

I had a great session last night. I only had time to talk about 2 of the things on my list. One was sort of hard....I'd like to talk to her more about it but if I let too much time go by I will sweep it under the rug, so I might ask for another session next week even though its supposed to be my off week...

I kind of wish my T would call me out on the I don't know...when she asks questions... it might help if I would sit with the questions a few minutes but my anxiety is always too high... then I'm stuck thinking about them for 2 weeks

I'm supposed to have my session on thursday but I need to reschedule and so now its tonight. I remember writing the post above but now I can't remember what we talked about. I know it started being about the marriage seminar but there was more but now I can't remember what it was... I hate how my subconscious does that... am I the only one this happens to?

It happens to me, too, RTS. It happens to my T, too. He takes notes and then can't remember what the context was.

I used to journal my sessions, which helped me remember. I stopped doing it when we hit some really hard stuff and I haven't started back up again.

I see my T tomorrow and I wish I could stop thinking about it TODAY. Worrying about it today doesn't help anything.

Hey couch peeps....My assignment went well today. Just got back from my T session, and we're really connecting the dots with the trauma stuff and figuring out how things got so out of control over the last few weeks. I'm feeling pretty yucky and vulnerable - but T believes we are making progress. I hope so.

Will try to catch up on the couch soon. Hope everyone is doing well. (( HUGS ))

That's good to hear, mue. Well, not yuckiness, obviously.

mkac... I know what you mean re worrying in advance. It fills no function that I can see. And still we do it.

RTS, I hope your session goes well.

I see T in 12 hours. I really hope it will be an okay session. I need T to be there for me right now and to listen to me without freaking out. He's never freaked out in the past but I have some bad stuff to bring up tomorrow.

Hey Wikid, when you get back, let us know how the drive was!

Well, I survived my long day. Got to watch K sleep and eat again. Then got to watch C. I was hungry after picking up C, so I stopped at McDonalds (drive thru) for food and got C some chicken nuggets as well. He gobbled them pretty quickly.

Well, another early morning tomorrow with my inservice, then to head off to T. Hopefully it will go well.

Well, I need to go eat some supper. Be back later tonight.

I hope everyone who is struggling has a better night than they did day.

well my house sold.... so im officially homeless now.... must be out July 31st

Honey you're not officially homeless until you're sleeping at the church or in your car and you have no bank account. Yeah I'm sensitive about the h word!

ETA: So the best thing about my session today: lotsa things, really. One, did y'all notice the google baby (for maurice sendak's birthday)? That's the baby doll I make t hold. He hadn't seen it, so I pulled it up on my phone so he could see it, then I told him to show the baby doll, so he held the phone up to her eyes. And then adjusted it so she could get a better look!

Then later in the session he said I never sounded that way before, or he never heard it. I wasn't screeching for once. I was just talking. I sounded connected and unforced even to me.

hi everyone.

really down. Not exactly sure why. The baby is no bigger than a Barbie doll...seriously tiny. Scary, but she's doing really well. I just ache inside. Running a slight fever, so maybe I'm coming down with something...it just feels more emotional than physical.

MKAC - the drive was easy, I had a few panic attacks when I saw the city on the horizon, but I breathed my way thru. I had some problems getting back on the highway, but once I did it was a piece of cake coming home.

I have the best T! I just texted my T to ask if he had any cancellations this week to consider me. He texted right back and said I could see him at 2pm today. Now I have to overcome my anxiety to take ex-h meds to the hospital. I'm sure he does this just to p*** me off. Now I feel guilty for all the terrible thoughts about him.

I will catch up on the couch later. Screamingly busy. Have to ring ex-MIL next, where's my valium.

People appreciate the fact that you apologised before they noticed.
The earlier the apology, the more effective it is.

Oh geez is everybody mad at me for saying something about the word homeless? So you go offline again? Fine ill stay off the couch. Ill be couchless. Happy now? I know this isn't the first time, but I swear its the last time ill be given the silent treatment.

For me I would think just seeing the precious baby so tiny and knowing how much stress the mom and dad are under would make my heart ache...

I hope you are feeling better.

Hankster... I just got home and signed on... I'm not ignoring you... I wasn't upset about your homeless comment...

I struggle with the silent treatment feeling... when you post on the couch and no one responds... like for me I am on during lunch eastern daylight savings time and there are rarely anyone on at that time... but you can't be sure if they are busy doing other stuff or just not commenting on your post... I try to think positively but it is hard to do at time.

since restarting my meds (generic Prozac) at the beginning of last month (May) I have lost seven pounds. I was at 111 lbs and now I'm at 104 lbs... A part of me is slightly excited at the thought that I am now underweight (according to bmi calculators you can google) but at the same time I'm scared that I'm gonna get sucked into my old eating disorder again...

Hankster, I'm not ignoring anybody. I'm just caught up in my little drama at the moment. I have no issues with your homeless comment either.
Like ready said I struggle with the feeling of being ignored, but remind myself that like me others have demands that take them away from the forum. I sometimes don't log off either.