Couch 52 - Are you being served?

it is also all over the place .i am suppose to go on insulin and all .my NP turfed me to an endocrinologist .this doc has not called me and i don't want to see her anyway so i have not called to remind her . i slept for about 3 hrs this morning .its a start. so maybe ill stop complaining now .

stop sorry about your bad dreams lately . do you get them often.

RTS what are you insane going to the Laundromat at such a time . i hope it was at least in an OK area. have your hubby hang a line in the basement like stop has if it is possible

(((( Granite )))) - I'm sorry that you're struggling so much. I wish you could get some much needed relief from this inner turmoil. My T tells me that my anxiety at night may very well be because I distract myself from what's eating me up inside during the day, and then it all spills out at night. His hope is that by talking about it and working through it, that the symptoms will subside. I hope today will be a better day.

((( MKAC ))) - I know you're disappointed. I wish you could see there is so much good in you. You're not a bad parent. Not by a long shot.

((( Murray ))) - I'm sorry you're struggling. If you need a lending ear, I'm here.

to all my couch peeps and extra to those who are struggling right now.

Well, I would suggest you steer clear from the insulin pump. I waste so much insulin, and I have had so many issues with the site getting infected. Of course, my immune system is still not worth a crap from the chemo, but dang. If I hadn't invested so much into the pump and all it's accessories, I'd go to injections. ouch.

(and dang girl, make the freakin appointment...just do it)

Good morning, couch peeps.

Had an awful night's sleep last night. I'm at my sister's. The kids wanted so much of my attention yesterday, and I was hoping I was able to snap out of my funk in order to give them the entertainment that they come to expect. I just wasn't able to do it. My daughter asked me if I was depressed. *sigh*

The sleeping arrangements here were a struggle last night as well. I ended up on my sister's recliner, but it was so uncomfortable for me. I could feel my entire back and neck straining, and I couldn't relax those muscles no matter how hard I tried.

Finally, at 4 AM, I heard banging coming from downstairs. I got up - saw that everyone and the dog were in the room with me sleeping - and the banging sounds happened again. I woke up my adult niece and asked her if there was anything (like the a/c) that made banging sounds when turned on. She didn't think so. So, we ended up going downstairs and I checked out the house. Everything seemed fine. I ended up staying downstairs and sleeping on the couch for about an hour.

Every time I tried to sleep, all I could think of was my last T session....and how incredibly sad I feel about it all.

No one told me that I was going to have to take my niece and the kids to her double header today - which means I'll be spending most of the day on the field. Not really what I wanted to have to do, but I guess it'll be a good distraction. I see T tomorrow, early afternoon. Maybe this next session will help us better understand what happened and get to a place of beginning to repair the damage. If not, then maybe therapy just isn't for me.

Sorry for rambling....little sleep...feeling down....blah.

Morning couch.

I fell asleep about 8pm last night. I guess the cleaning wore me out. I slept until my alarm went off at 7am. Wow...11 hours of sleep. I needed it though as I haven't been sleeping enough the past few days.

MUE & Granite, I'm sorry you are struggling. Hopefully things will turn around in the near future.

MKAC, I'm sorry you are feeling bad about forgetting to pack some things for your daughter. It by no means makes you a bad mother.

Lola, I'm glad you had a good vacation. Hopefully you boss will let you work from MI, so you can be with your grandma.

To anyone else who is having a hard time, that I seemed to miss, I hope things turn around soon...just hang in there.

Well, I'm just checking in before heading to the senior place. Maybe I will get paid to watch K sleep again. That was easy.

I hope everyone has a good day.

Good morning all.

Going pick up my mother for church. Suddenly I feel yucky and nauseous. I know I actually don't "have" to, but I will. Not trying to be a martyr, just trying to be a "good daughter". Does that make sense? I know that I am asking for problems. I know that you all think I am nuts for doing it.

I have 4 out of the five. No technivorm, but I have and use all the others.
And a percolator.

No way are you nuts, Wiki. I totally get your ambivalence about doing things for your mother. I struggle with it with my father. I love him, but don't really like him, KWIM? I do things with and for him because a) he's an old man who lost his wife and I am not without compassion and b) I have a sense of duty as his daughter.

Which is your favorite?

I love my French press...but I hate keeping it warm, and it isn't good if there's more than a few people.

The moka pot is my favorite.
I have a stainless steel insulated French Press which helps keep it warm and I use it or the chemex if I am with 2-3 other people. The aeropress I take on trips.

make the best of it wiki .try to enjoy being at church K

this mornings fasting shugar is 467 a bit high

I think it's kind of funny that the IKEA version of the French press is called UPPHETTA. That's the Swedish word for "to heat [something] up" - which is just what you don't want to do with coffee! We have two French press cans (Bodum, not IKEA), one that's two or three cups, and one with about eight cups.

Holy Crap Granite! That's really high. I'm not sure but I think it may be ER sort of high. Please be careful and take care of yourself.

Apparently not!

Good morning all....raining like crazy, I have to move my office today...figures!

ahd plans but now staying home and have lots of time to be in a completely crappy mood.

what happened, granite?

had a friend going with me to a craft thing but now not .i dont want to go alone . but in a bad mood so better stay away. im not liked in a bad mood at all so am just going to hide today and cry .god even writing this is making me cry .i am pathetic. thanks mastidonfor asking .a you are so sweet . i am sorry if i have mede you so uncomfortable around here lately.

You haven't made me uncomfortable at all, granite! Don't think that for a second. I'm doing rather badly and am a bit prickly, but I don't want anybody to think that they have done anything here to make me feel bad.

I'm sorry to hear that your friend stood you up.

I am sorry your having a bad day granite. Maybe a funny movie and a nap to feel better?i old avoid alcohol.

Sorry your having a bad time too APT

Thanks, Lola. How are you feeling?

granite, it's no wonder you feel crappy with sugar that high! My blood sugar being off can really throw my moods into an uproar.

Thanks APT... I am ok, I just emptied my office and moved all my stuff home. I am still very sad and confused about what to do with my life, but im 5 days drug free .... so theres a start.