Couch 53 Bringing it All Back Home

This comes from a bad place.

((Apt))

Maybe you should try it, just once, to see what it feels like.
Don't break anything valuable. Try smashing your empty bottles against a brick wall.

I agree. Go for it!

I'm glad!

Thanks, Ike! My first time winning the couch! No longer a virgin.

CE - you don't like Bach or find it emotional? Is that all baroque music you feel this way about?

If there was a health reason I might pay more attention. But just in general because of my own feelings about it, no.

I must have missed the discussion of Bach and Lola not liking. hmmm

OK i know i set myself up and i wont say anything else but i miss my son .he isn't coming home.

its another tequila sunDOWN

Four loads of laundry washed and dried... 2 loads washed and 5 loads more loads to wash before I go back to the laundromat ....

My older son is cleaning the upstairs bathroom... which he is sighing and complaining about... My younger son is doing the family room.... which is a hard too cause he has movies, video games, and toys to organize....

My H told the boys 6 weeks ago that he was creating a chore chart and making them help but he didn't follow thru as usual... I tried to let him be "in charge" and the "man of the house"... hoping he would step up and be the leader of our home but he can't seem to care enough to do any of the things he says he's going to do...

So once again I have to be the "bad guy" and he gets to be the fun parent...
It sucks ...

I confused LC and CE. I fixed it.

Granite... you can complain about missing your son here.... it must be very difficult having him be so far away.

Very odd. I just complained about my T not calling after she promised she would. Yesterday she said she'd call me this afternoon and didn't and it mad me feel sad and alone. I got on here and posted about it then the phone rang. Her home number showed up on the caller id, then she hung up. She called back again from a "private number" I told her she had the wrong number and hung up because H was standing next to me. So I'm confused, why would she let the phone ring twice then block her number and call back again?

She probably realized that she called from the wrong number. It can be a safety issue for both T and you, as evidenced by the fact that you pretended it was a wrong number when she called back. Granted once she placed the initial call with her number showing, she sort of defeated the purpose. Sorry that you were unable to talk. Can you contact T somehow to let her know you are okay? She might be concerned. I'm hoping that you are okay.

Why would you tell her she had the wrong number.... don't you have a cordless phone that you could have answered and walked away with? Don't you think she knows she called the right number and recognized your voice? Won't your H give you your privacy?

Even my pediatrician calls back from a private line... she forgot to do that first before she called you... so she hung up and did it which is really a little late but it was for her privacy... they don't want people calling their private lines....

I told her it was the wrong number (and I know she knows it was me) because H was right next to me. I can't talk in front of him and the reason why she called was because of him. Hard to get into details but I will call her after H falls asleep to let her know everything is okay.

I totally get that but I found it odd that she hung up after it rang twice then called again after blocking the number. At that point it had already shown up on caller id.

I like Bach, but his music is very intellectual.

Other than scrubbing the kitchen sink/counter...putting away a couple things...and finishing the up the laundry that I'm working on, I think I've accomplished everything I set out to do. Yippee!!

Oh wait....forgot cleaning up the deck.....OK, well, I'm close?

So far, no calls for work, although my manager touched base with me to see if I can be available to be on-call overnight which I agreed to.

Tomorrow morning, I'm attending a memorial mass for my dad and then we're having a luncheon afterwards. Not sure I feel up to being around family right now...but tomorrow is another day.

I wish my daughter was home.

Really. I have been moved by it. I love the baroque period. And rennaissance and classical. It is romantic forward that I find can be tedious.

I'm feeling somewhat proud of myself... inside I feel horrible... other than a few not so nice tones of voices to my children... I don't feel like I've done too bad for today.

Everything in me wanted to climb in bed and sleep all day.... but I got laundry done and got the kids to work on getting some chores done....

Maybe that's what you need to do.
It's a terrible trap not to able to take a sick day.

CE thanks but sleeping is how I cope with the depression... and really its not healthy to sleep way too much... its good for me to push myself to do the things that need to be done whether I feel like doing them or not...

the feelings are there but I don't have to act on them...

((RTS))

No worries, RTS. You didn't stop the couch.

I just had a strong surge of missing being married. Strange, because I was unhappily married for a very long time. But, when I had a need for physical and emotional affection, I could get those needs met - even if I had to fantasize about it not being him in order to meet those needs.

It's kinda sad to know that my marriage was the end of that part of me.