Couch 53 Bringing it All Back Home

We hung out at home for most of the day, went out and had dinner, then ran some errands. It was so refreshing to be at home just the two of us!!!

Hey all, Happy Father's Day to CE and Ike..... Sorry I have been MIA. My happiness bubble is gone.... I'm back to not knowing what I should do. Im really good at being a chameleon but in the end I cant fool me.

I good food.

I cooking good food.

Cleaning up dishes. Notsomuch

Thanks!

I think mood swings are pretty much standard in your position.

Thanks CE.... I think it's a question of accepting that she wants me to be a good person and apparently by her standards I'm not always up to Par. So I need to decide if I can be me and be loved for me, messy and not so perfect all the time or if I just accept I need to change and be a better person according to her standards. Just when I think I am doing good, I find out Im not.

(((( Lola ))))

I'm going to have give up sleeping, I think. I feel like my contributions to the couch are like jumping into a pool party when everyone is getting out.
HELLO EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU.

Now give me time to catch up...

Other's negative attitudes towards us, only hurt because we feel weak and vulnerable to specifically those things.

If your T is triggering those, and not helping you resolve those, that isn't a great therapy experience.

You're not supposed to be walking out feeling more guilty than going in. That's reserved for Jewish temples.

I didn't go to my mother's house yet. While my daughter was out with her dad for 1-1/2 hours, I was sleeping on the couch.

I feel badly that I haven't made an effort, but I'm feeling cruddy right now. I hope they won't mind if I just let them know that I'll stop over tomorrow instead after my assignment. I'm just not up to going out. I just want to crawl into bed.

Healed - glad you had a nice day.

LC - who are you talking about that wants you to live up to their standards?

Just had visions of Hankster as the hermit in the Life of Brian.

I agree mapleton is very, now I've forgotten the word. Like expressive only better. No reflection on CE's succinct reply though. Both were appreciated.

The wife of course SD.

Not of course. I thought you all had split up, sold your house and so forth. Why are you still listening to her?

Thanks CE. That was exactly my problem. I have sketchbook full of quarter, half finished ideas. I hate that I can't finish any of them, my T calls them "works in progress"

Not speaking on Lola's behalf. But for me I still listen to my ex-h out of habit, I'm still unsure how to live by myself after all these years, and I was co-dependent for so long and i feel guilty. These are just my reasons. Lola may have different ones.

Ah. Perhaps I break up differently.

Turns out I suck at breaking up. I have to work from home, so we are both here and it seemed good ....until today

Guilty, thats it.... I feel guilty if I do anything she doesn't like.

ARGH! Don't you hate it when you almost hug SD?

Hi BP! Come on in, the water's fine.

Breaking up can be hard to do. I just thought you all were further along in the physical split than it seems you actually are.

(((Lola))) love ya girl!

But give yourself a big hurrah for the restraint and self control. Well done, you.

Eloquent.