Couch 61: How Long Will it Last?

So I assume this mean you will NOT be shipping me some?

MKAC...good to see you.

thanks everybody for the offers of support ...I know I might need help not caving in...

I dont want to say exactly what is going to happen yet cause I dont want to say anything to H till Tuesday night.... He has T on wednesday so hoping he can have his own support (see still codependent)... I see xT on Thursday...

Also trying to figure out how it will all work out with the least upset to the boys

Thanks for checking in, MKAC! Sorry to hear you've been having a rough time. I certainly understand how PC can trigger certain things. (( HUGS ))

((( RTS )))

I hope whatever you have planned goes well. The one thing I learned in therapy was that I needed to follow through on what I knew was the healthy thing to do - in spite of how awful it felt to do. Hardest thing ever.

Jersey - Yep! Yard sailing! We were all over the place.

My goal was to only get clothes for my daughter and DVDs, if I came across anything worth buying for cheap. I ended up getting more than I bargained for, of course, LOL. We came upon a place that had a ton of therapy-related books - the person having the yard sale was the mom of a T. I struck gold there, getting a dozen books for $2.25.

I was so annoyed with my friend though. We came up to this one house that had a ton of Partylite things - new in boxes - and as soon as we got there and noticed them, she asked how much they wanted. $1 each. ONE DOLLAR. She said, "I'll take them all" and started grabbing at them like a mad woman....and refused to let me and our other friend even look at them. I was not a happy camper.

I told her I was a bit disappointed that she didn't consider whether or not we wanted anything. She said, "Well, I'm not working - and I can use these as gifts!" - Umm, me too?

Well, that's the breaks, I guess.

There's also tension because my daughter is with me. My daughter is not very independent when it comes to being at my friend's house. And that annoys my friend. She also knows that I won't let my daughter be in her house if she smokes in the house - so she doesn't smoke in the house when my daughter is there (or, we just wouldn't go over there unless I had childcare). I can clearly sense her annoyance about having my daughter there - but if my daughter wasn't there or was unhappy, I wouldn't be there....so she has her options. Take me with my daughter - or I won't be coming over until I have time when my daughter isn't home.

Home from apple picking.. We had tons of fun. Stopped for some pizza and wings on the way home. We are all exhausted.

I hope you all are enjoying your Saturday!

I am bored!!!! When I get bored and no distracted I start thinking. Thinking isn't good. Right now, I am contemplating running away from T.. for no good reason at all!!

Healed so glad you had a good time and pizza and wings sound great.

I'm sitting here waiting for my son to be finished with xc practice. My younger son took his first group golf lesson this morning.... He did pretty well for never have held a club before...

My H has to work today so its like a bonus day..

Healed...From someone who ran away....dont do it... It just prolongs things...

A wise PC poster once told me when u want to run away or push t away....is when you need to do just the opposite

I am pretty sure I have heard this piece of advice before from somebody on pc.. and I am also pretty sure, T would agree with it. I am thinking that it is a topic worth talking about in my next t session.

That's a lot. I think you are entitled to point that out.

PS

I HOPE you will point that out.

Thanks for the kind words everyone.

Healed...apple picking sounds like fun!

Granite.....I agree, it would be good if you could talk about it with your T.

I know I am new here, but if you find me posting at this time of day it will mean that things are tough for me because its 11am here right now and I really ought to be getting on with my Sunday....... but I am stuck in tiredness from a dream filled wakeful nights 'sleep' and feeling very down and still feel like crying but cant now because my boy is around.

Life goes on, so I will clean the bathroom and do some washing before a new week starts, may even go out and treat myself to a coffee. Looooove a good cup of coffee.

Gah! I'm suffering some kind of obsessive attack. Worried about work well beyond the rational. Also fiaxting about the firebombing of Tokyo in 1945. Snap out of it, CE! Gah!

Two siblings wrote an obituary for their abusive mother, celebrating her passing from this life. So, so tempted for when my mother goes: http://www.rgj.com/article/20130912/NEWS/130912005/

Part of my rough time has been a "final" blow-up with my mother. She was complaining to me about my younger sister and her thief of a husband being "mean" to her and how she could not do anything because my younger sister and her T.O.A.H. own the house and the land. I thought I was being supportive, but when I mentioned how sis and her TOAH only own the house because they refused to pay rent and help with the mortgage payments, somehow it turned into me being mean and horrible and morphed into why I am a horrible person and I have destroyed our family with my selfishness and craziness. It ended when my mother dragged my husband into and I told her I was done with her lies in general, but about my husband in particular and I was not going to sit and listen to her lie about my husband. She hung up on me. My H tried to call her a few hours later to discuss the thing she was lying about that involved him, and she screamed at him (literally) and he said she was basically incoherent and had lost all grip on reality and was making no sense. The only thing she was clear on was that she is "done" with me and never wants to have anything to do with me again. I am vacillating wildly between:

MUE- that was kind of rude of your friend to grab all the partylite stuff. You were all there together. I woulda kinda been disappointed to. Does said friend have her own kids? I mean-I understand wanting adult time and all- but that comes In the form of a treat-when there is time. Otherwise-it's the kids first. For sure. Friend could take it or leave it, eh?

((MKAC))

Horrible, I know, but it was a long time coming and things will get better from here.

It sounds like Mum, Sis and TOAH are made for each other and there could be no sweeter revenge than to let them get on with it.

And you can make your own life without them.

I feel like I'm under sentence of death and only waiting for the axe to fall.
Sod it! I'm going back on Prozac.

MKAC-if she is really "done" with you then i agree with what CE said. but I understand all the mixed feelings, as well. She's caused you so much frigging agony. life will be better without her once you can work through all the emotions.

Yawn. I'm at work so boss parents could go on a date night. Eyes are getting sleepy. Wanna get home so I can crawl under my blanket and take a nap.

Sorry MKAC, as I am pretty sure her being done, will only mean "until she needs something from you again."

saw that same obit and I'm glad that my kids will not write one like that for me someday. (((((MKAC)))))

Sleep well Jersey

Jersey is home. Now I have a second wind.

What did yous guys do this weekend?

I spent it with my W and her and I are getting along great. The time apart is proving to each of us what a great relationship we could still have, if we stop playing parts we evolved into and got back to square one. Great weekend. You Jersey, what did you do?

I'm so so happy to hear that Lola.

I do love the fact that time not only heals but it can also bring forth the truth....a sheep in wolves clothing will eventually be seen as a wolf.