[deepestwaters40]

I'm nervous about being in T next week because of flashbacks from a trauma I'm remembering from about a month ago. Apparently I've been dissociating from it this whole time...and I still am.

I want to deal with it so I can move past it but I am so scared. I can picture myself going into T and skyrocketing into a panic attack from whatever I'm remembering or feeling. This almost happened yesterday when I realized I blocked out the trauma...I talked to t on the phone and it was very helpful and comforting. I'm still scared though. I keep remembering things. I know I'm going to end up feeling more than I already have from all this. I can't stop thinking about t and remembering again. The fear of facing it is getting to me.

[mazing]

I can't imagine how hard that must be but it seems that talking to your T helps you manage those feelings? T can be a hard place when those feelings come up but it also seems like the best place. While your T sessions can bring up these emotions and memories they can also give you the time and skills to work through them and come out stronger.

I know it doesn't make it any easier now but in time it will get better again. Thinking of you.

I have dissociated a number of times in session, and came close to full-on panic at least once before everything just shut down and I was trapped in my head. My T was able to help me with it -- get it contained and get back from where I was trapped. If your T is experienced with trauma, he or she will be able to help you with this and work through it.