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RTS - I am fairly certain I would have responded to the therapist by saying "WTF, are you messing with me or what?" and waited for clarification.

I would have freaked out internally because I am constantly second guessing myself anyway. I am so sorry exT was such a poor therapist.

Pretty sure I would have told her to F off and she could go dream about that.

wow that response sux ready .im sorry

trigger for what i think is creepy

that happened last night... I was upset in the waiting room pacing and crying...couldnt decide to leave or go puke in rest room....just as i was going to leave...he came to get me....

I just sank in sofa...held onto the pillow kept my eyes closed and shook from anxiety.... I wanted to tell him about my a very serious memory but after he kept saying i didnt have to if i wasnt ready...i told him i didnt think he wanted to hear it and that i didnt think he would believe me.... He tried to reassure me

but instead i ended up telling him the guy touching my hair and face telling me i had bedroom eyes and me being naive said i had cow eyes (the color of cows eyes) and the creepy laugh the guy made and how it scared me and i felt trapped.... And i dont know who it was... And i dont remember more of it....

And what he said at time seemed like he was listening and believed me and then he asked if it could have been a dream...

I could never tell him the other memory...

to xT credit.... He did tell me if I needed to talk to call him or if that was too hard to text him and we could arrange time and not ot suffer needlessly...

I must of made a face or raised an eyebrow or something...cause he said you let me worry about what is too much...

but you know when i was 10 to 12 year old girl...i craved attention... I latched on to anyone ... I must have used to flirt... Why else would my sister's boyfriends bring me stuffed animals and stuff like that... I probably brought stuff on myself

So Ready, if I told you how much I craved attention and how I would crawl on my mom's lap, even knowing what would probably happen, would you tell me that I brought it on myself? Please be as kind to yourself as you know you would be to me or anyone else.

I bought some dried beet chips yummm they are so good.may try to make my own some day

wiki are you going to get rid of your pump and start using the pen???

Not an acceptable response!!! I would suggest this as a topic at your next session w/ him. How do you feel about his response?

Rts- you have named your current t as "x" t... So does that mean you are switching to young t? Or are you still deciding?

xT is the first T I've even seen - male psychodynamic PsyD - quit in 8/2012 saw a few times this summer and thought I'd give it a chance to see if it would be better this time

T2 - female CBT - still seeing her too... but thinking of stopping to see her individually and start seeing her as marriage counselor

YT - 28 year old psychodynamic - I can see him for $25 copay so for a month it would be $100 and it costs $120 for one session with xT. so its hard to justify going to the others but... with xT there is some sort of connection... its like a negative transference... I love to hate him.

I was too surprised to really think about it but it bothered me...but really I'm not comfortable with knowing for sure any of my memories are real so maybe it is a dream... maybe I'm just making it up to get attention...

How do you pronounce that? Fanny Hall?

I tend to see you as quiet and refined. I keep forgetting you are a brawling, bare-knuckle cook.

I would take it at face value and just say, no, that really happened.

T has a right to ask difficult questions. A duty, even.

Mind you, if I was in a bad mood I would say, you have to validate my feelings before you start challenging me.

I can think of two other reasons why a sister's boyfriend might bring you gifts.
1. In the hope that you wouldn't tell your parents what sister was doing.
2. In the hope that when sister runs him down, you'll stick up for him.

A hostile little sister can make big trouble for a suitor!

I was 6 years younger than my sister so I don't think it would have made much difference.... I didn't know what my sister was doing... but I did stick up for him... ...another reason... If sister turns him down and he ends up hanging around long enough...little sister might date him too when she gets older..

My sisters' boyfriends gave me presents in order to impress my sisters. (I did not know what my sisters were doing, and I would not have understood the concept of sticking up for somebody, if it meant talking back to my sisters...)

Thanks CE... I guess that is true... I did tell him it was not a dream... but maybe its just a mixed up piecing together of unrelated stuff... I'll never know anything with certainty....

There's a conspiracy going on in my house.

The kittens are locked in a small room when I'm not home, and it's barricaded cuz they are small enough to squeeze under the door. After my assignment today, I picked up my daughter from the bus and we came home. I rested for about a minute when suddenly, a kitten appeared in my living room! Before the shock wore off, two more kitties appeared! LOL.

My daughter went to open the door for the other one before I was able to see how they got out. I decided to change up the barricade to something a little stronger....and a couple minutes after I successfully locked them up so I could go to the store, my 3 year old cat was working on the barricade, trying to free them. Too cute. But frustrating. LOL.

Rhymes with Daniel.

ACK, RTS...that would be a tough question for me to hear, as it would help me feel invalidated and possibly dismissed. Rationally, I can see it differently - that T is not intending to be malicious and the question is genuine - but emotionally, ouch.